oh yeah!

Mood is exceptionally good today!! Seriously wonder what happened to my hormones because i AM having such stupid infection down there and my mood is still so good. *fainted* Probably that's the arrival of the newborn in our family!! OMG! this handsome little thing is really cute and too bad i had not uploaded his photos. Buahahahaa! ok... you can never expect this lazy xiao yi to act fast. Usually i will procrestinate till cows come home and the pictures will appear! Buahahhaa!! This new little boy is fair, has a very nice nose and ears, has little hair and is rather small. My sisters said his fingers are long but i had not seen it. So exciting right? I caled Carrot this morning and told her i had a handsome nephew and will probably show her his photo.. Ya.. and did i say he cry very loud????

The moment i stepped into the hossie yesterday, our family's famous little girl just pop out behind the curtain. So cute right... Ya.. she is forever the apple in our eyes. And she had been protecting her brother yesterday night when we teased her. So sweet right... Ya ya,.. she cried when she knew that her mummy will not be going home. Oh... what a sweetie...

Dear called me just now while he was on his way to work. He told me that somebody called him about this free spa for 2 on thursday and obviously he was asking me along. Buaahahahaah!! I had been complaining bout my aching body and had been pestering dear for spa. Guess he really made such good use of this chance huh.... What can i say bout this old man of mine...?? Nice and sweet and wonderful?! Ya... even when he hated to go Jurong so much, he brought er jie and me to dinner, then sent her home (Jurong). Buaahaha!!

New member in the family!!

Yeah!! Salmon Braydon landed on earth!!!!! FINALLY after such a long wait... buahahahaha!! another noisy thing joined the family. Hopefully he will not be as noisy as Ethyl.. Buahhahaha!!!

ARGH!! I am so tired. Doesn't seem to have enough rest. Will everything goes as fate had arranged? Carrot and i were sms-ing each other this morning and we realized that i had been quite weak since i changed my job. I was frequently sick and always down with flu. Ya.. my nose opened its tap again and i can't do anything to it. And got urinal tract infection.. Was feeling something very wrong yesterday at dear's place because i was really in pain and very uncomfy, this arouse my suspicious. I had that once exactly 10 years ago and because of the 10 year anniversay the bacterial came back to visit me again. I seriously suspect either my office feng shui is not too good or dear's place feng shui is not very good for me. Whenever i spend a long weekend there, i will fall sick (esp flu). Dear don't understand why i will get the infection because i usually have my faminine wash which is suppose to be some kinda antiseptic wash and i use it DAILY! ok.. enough of all the nonsense. I read up on the infection yesterday and it was said that if i had the infection once, most likely i will get it again. Drinking tons of water to flush out the bacterial and germs before it really reach some important organs. Haiz... poor thing...

random

Just another random blog entry because I AM TOO BORED!! I can't wait to see dear dear today again! Just saw him yesterday night and he was so loving! He was playing this stupid word game from facebook (again!) and i was sitting beside him helping. Not much of a help but at least helped! so when he finished his word game because he did not managed to come out with enough words to support the next game (its obviously game over), he gave me a hug while complaining why was i so dumb. Contradicting right?! Why would you complain and hug somebody at the same time. So i supposed he don't mean his complains. Can't help but to heart him so much..

I managed to jinx him in the rain and he gotta go my house for dinner yesterday!!! Ok.. i will be going over to his today and poor me on bad food again! Just joking.. I was really really very very tired. Seems like sleeping as early as 9plus is still not enough for me. Ya.. i am an pig who sleeps alot! who the heck don't wana have the luxury to sleep.

Had a very weird dream yesterday night. *confused* I dreamt of my wedding with Dear! OMG!!! and alot alot of things. Maybe i was just thinking too much. ARGH!!! WTH! I hate this kinda dream, because bad things will happen to me when i dreamt of this kinda thing. Yeah!! bout little more than 3 months to Aussie...!!!!! *dancing around*

How should i say this??

I wasn't quite in the mood to talk to dear yesterday because he had totally pissed me off on Tuesday night. So during my lunch, he took the initiative to sms me. And actually i did not intend to call him at all yesterday night since i was still unhappy with him but changed my mind after i saw his sms before i went to bed.

What should i say about our conversation? Probably he know me too well...

Me: What?
D: what what?
M: What you want?
D: Oh.. angry...
M: ya... because you are irritating..
D: Eh.. the blood type comic strip you sent me was very cute..
M: ya.. so in order for me to confirm that you are a type B man, i sms-ed you that day.
D: No wonder..
M: I had a dream.. i dreamt that you don't want me.. you had someone else.
D: Oh! izzit?? Who? Pretty not? Hot? No wonder you never call me during lunch or sms me Chelsea and Liverpool draw.
M: Ya.. how i know what she looked like! Never see in the dream. You told me its your ex!
D: OH! Which one?
M: how i know? Never say...
D: Oh!
M: are you still in contact with your ex?
D: No!
M: Sure?
D: ya.. 2 were married... ya.. and the one not married very long bout 3 or four years no contact (calculating and mumbling himself). Maybe i should find her in facebook and contact her. Think she is shorter than you and fiercer.. hmm.. maybe 2 of your temper is comparable.. equally fierce..
M: you don't like to be compared right?
D: Maybe if your dream is true than tell me when you dreamt that i strike 4D or Toto even better! No wonder you never call me.. I knew something was very wrong...
M: you saw the comic strip right? see the blood type A and B comic strip? The one A having problem with computer and B spoiled everything still say A petty?
D: Ya..
M: EXACTLY like you! Always say i am petty when u irritated me...!!

And the whole thing went on as an arguement on the blood type analysis...

Cute Baby...

Ok... Think this is a much adorable thing to blog about other than the stupid morning incident. As i had mentioned earlier, i went to meet my customer for a very long meeting yesterday and went straight home after that. The meeting was in late afternoon and since that customer's office was at Woodlands, I reached home real fast at about 1800hr. Mummy was cooking dinner when i reached home and the house was very quite because Ethyl will only reach home at 1815hr.

So i set up my lappy and started sending out some emails to follow up on the meeting. The quiet me was working alone in the room when Ethyl returned home as well. She was running and talking to mummy and da jie and she did not know that i was in the room. I don't usually return home so early. So even when Ethyl was running around, this cross eye girl will not see me in the room working.

Forgot is mummy or da jie: Xiao yi is in come back already.
Ethyl: who? Xiao yi? NO! She not back yet!
Same person: No. She is in her room. You go and see.
Ethyl: Is it?

So this elephant ran in...

Ethyl: Xiao yi? Why you come back? Why you never call me? (i suppose she was saying why i never welcome her home from school instead staying in my room quietly)
* Me in thoughts: @!#!$$ I return home you asked me why i come back.
Me: I miss you ma... And i am working now, so wanted to call you after i finish my work.
Ethyl: You work? Why you take uncle ken computer?
*Me in thoughts: Just because my lappy looks like dar's lappy doesn't mean it belongs to him.
Me: No.. This is mine, not uncle ken's.

And this naughty girl went out and announced i was home.....

Boiling!

I was boiling this morning but wasn't that much now, anyway, i wana blog about it. BUahahhaa!!

Had been real busy due to my customer upside recently, since my birthday, and that's like start of April can! Met my customer for the first time yesterday and FINALLY saw their face. Now i know who i had been working with. Ok this is not my boiling point.

This morning i reached office damn bloody early because i purposely wanna take the early bus and god decided to make the bus uncle late upon hearing my prayers. Reaching office was another phase. Reports, reports after REPORTS. After reports will be conference call!! And in the midst of my conference call, an irritating email came in:

For N parts, there is a transit time included for the shipment as well. Please kindly inform Customer. (of course i edited this a bit to hide the work term)

WHAT THE HECK?! Why are you poking into my account and see how my customer wanna do their stuff???

After the conference call, i went back to my seat and told this senior of mine that its the customer decision to update as per their liking. And they said that for that N customer's parts, they will only all update the leadtime as per the N customer's leadtime without transition time. Ok.. lets call this senior S. S then requested me to show her the email which the customer had said. So i forwarded her this history email which we had earlier this January and she said she was aware of it because her customer was also involved in the program. Then i told S, the customer will strictly follow S leadtime and wont do any additional, that's what they said they had been following that all along! S still insisted me to show her that email and insisted me to follow her instructions. Well, well, so i told her that the customer had already updated it in their system.

After hearing that, she called the customer X which had provided us the leadtime and asked if customers handling end customer N should update their lead time without transit time. X told her to send the email to the US personnel and asked him. So since she decided not to believe me though I AM THE ACCOUNT MANAGER of this particular customer AND SHE HAD NEVER HANDLED THEM BEFORE, she decided to ask her own customer with the same N end customer on how they updated their lead time. Guess what she get?? Her own customer DON"T update the leadtime including transit time! They only update the leadtime given by N and no additional numbers will be added to it!

So this is what i say.. be clever and stop acting too clever!! I DON"T WORK THE WAY YOU WORK!! So stop making me work like you!! Some more i can't show my black face or any discontented face because i decided not to be too emotional at work. Tell you, this is not the first time she ever do this kinda thing.

BOILING!!

When sleep is a priviledge

I need some sleep now!!! The first question that was being asked by the first caller of this morning was "You are in office so early??!! You can wake up??" Yeah... and that's by one of the customer who also attended the 2300hr call yesterday night. Yesh! I did not type wrongly~ Its 2300Hr - 0000Hr yesterday night conference call. I was informed last minute yesterday night at about 2145Hr that we have a pre-con call with the US team at 2230hr. And that means, i will have to rushed home from Dear's house after i hung up with my customer's alert. Buoa!!!!!! I am so sleepy now!! I seriously need some sleep!! Had not had enough sleep these 2 days and i look super pale nomw. Just like a ghost walking around. Theres another call at 11hr.. Save me god... I need help. Hand me some red bull!!!!!

Flyer!!

Some photos to be updated. Did not bring my camera yesterday and so..... i missed out taking all the good photos. I meant the view. Went to Singapore Flyer yesterday, as promised by dar (decided to call him dar and stop calling him dear) last week.

I was at his house last weekend and waited for him to finish with his revision for the day and so we can leave the house. I was so bored that i went to look around at the Singapore Flyer webby and realised that my favouite fast food restaurant is available at that place!!! Since dar said we had not had fast food before (that was before we went for Mac breakfast), i decided that its time we go for popeye!!! I was so excited and dar was quite supportive of this since he had not ate popeye before. The queue was like damn bloody long can! Since i was already familiar with the restaurant dar decided to let me order the food instead and i waited for whole 20mins (he was the one counting the time) can!! Not bad.. at least i had my fill... Buahhahahaha!!!

Shall update the photos once i kop it from dar...

Sparing from details

How should i start with this? Ok.. I made some discovery. Sometimes, women are such creatures with loads of curiousity in their hormones and its really hard for them not to sneak into details. So what happens after making all the discoveries?? The answer is just another torturing, jealousy hormones rising within the blood.

When things just started, I indeed made the discovery (that was a small portion) and was feeling quite uneasy since then. So now with a more in depth discovery, can i say that i should trust? How much more can i lose again? The development of my curiousity hormones are created my my female hunch and what's next? I did not want to lose again, I need to know whether it is right to ignore and stay as now because that may be happier and better for the 2 of us. Who have no past right?

Yes, we are calling our present what we had called our past. To be fair, it was of course awkward to know that the names were repeated and probably had a feeling of being replaced. We are at no losing end here if we can really keep the past. I can't say that things are fair now. Probably not that fair. Jealousy hormones are increasing in me and to behave ignorant, its really hard. How can someone manage to prevent jealousy hormones from consuming their mind? A female hunch is always right. Now i think i am right about where that thing comes from and why i always have a feeling that this thing should be kept away from my sight. Call me a possessive girl! And tell me who is not?

I can't be so selfish to do things taht will hurt indirectly. Anyway, the thing that had contained my discoveries is spoiled but the memories of some were still visible and reserved in it. as for the current working thing that he is using now, at least the reserved and saved are of me. self comforting? Maybe~

Can't stand the pain!!

Yesh! I can't stand the pain any more! Seriously wonder what went wrong that so much sufferings are going on. I had a fall on Saturday and fell directly at the left side of my back and after the left side recover, the chronic pain occur at the right side. What the heck! I can't even walk at my normal speed and every inch i moved was so painful. I felt like theres a thousand needles poking right at my right lower back!! Damn bloody painful can!

Walking around like ah ma really made me damn uncomfy. that of course includes my sitting position. Once i am seated at one posture, i am restricted to another because every single move will become an agony. *ROAR* Can somebody just stop this pain??? Should i go for an x-ray to see if its a slip disc? I googled my pain and realise that this can be a cause of slip disc or even cancer?! OMG!! But i am really in pain. Mummy saw me in such pathetic state yesterday and she told me to ask dear to bring me to doctor this weekend. She said it will be better to treat me earlier than regret it later in my life (taking example of mummy herself). Mummy said when she was young she also heck much bout a simple fall and now she is suffering from permanent backache. I seemed to be the first kid in the family to suffer from backache since young. I always complain that my back hurts and theres nothing my folks can do. Sometimes, situation can really get so bad that i can't even walk properly. And this is the case NOW!

I don'r wanna become a ah ma so young!!

Updates: ok.. went to doc after lunch cause i found a doc at where i makan my lunch. Doc said i had strained my lingament and gave me some muscle relaxant. Great that it wasn't some serious thingy though my back is hurting. He said even when i landed on he left side of my butt during the fall, there wll still be a possibility that the right side was hurt instead because its connected. Ok.. everyobe should know that their 8/15 (in chinese its called ba yue shi wu; gotta type in english because my office lappy can't tye chinese words.) is round. So what goes around comes around and that applies to the butt as well.

back at work

What makes me blog again? the answer will of course be...... my boring work. Buahahahaha!! ya.. Reached office earlier today in order to complete my accumulated work from the last 2 days. Had not touched my work the last 2 days of my MC as i was really too tired to work from home and wanted to really take a break. And of course of my hurting back. buahahahaha!!

Well well.. Was reading through alot of blogs and something came across my mind which i think it will not be appropriate to write in facebook since i had added him. i can schemingly just comment that in facebook for n period of time but it will not reflect good on my healthy image. Buahahahhaa!! This is what that came across my mind after reading through one of my friend's blog..

There's nothing much more worthy than to take very good care of yourself and look into the future positively. Dwelling too much into the past will not make your life goes on and it is not worth thinking of man (men) who cheats..

Not pointing finger or whatever but if you are one who is affected but heartless, shamelessly cheap man (men), you can take that and carry on living your life. The man (men) who had cheated is happily living his (their) life now and heck care bout how miserable you are. He (they) may even feel so happy that you still miss him (them) so much and may even think that his (their) charm still works on you. So why make him (they) happy? Just carry on with your life friend. I understand your feeling as i was one too. Currently, still in good relation with the couple and the main reason is to show them that i am living a much better life even after i had chose to give up (actually there's no choice for me at that time). The one for you is there waiting, stop hiding in the past and start living like yourself.

Well, afterall, this is a thought of a cheater cum cheated.. Buahahaha!!

some updates

Ok.. I had been lazying around recently. Actually i had mentioned in my previous entry that i had 8 teeth removed and is currently still on MC... Buahahhahaha!!! My MC was suppose to end tomorrow and go back to work on Wednesday but i intended to go back today. AND i did not went back office! I fell down after mopping the floor on Saturday and was having slight difficulty walking so i decided to totally rest for a day before returning tomorrow. Anyway since last wednesday, though i was on MC i still worked at home. So in order to let me relax and recover fast, i rather relax the whole day today. Heheheehe...

Now my sisters were complaining that i wasn't blogging about them in my previous blog. Ok.. let me reveal what i had received from my sisters and Bec & QY. I received A Coach wristlet as i had blogged previously from both my sisters and a jewellary box from the girls!!!! Hehehehe.. Heart the pressies so much..

Went for dinner with Yuan da ge yesterday and really had a good chat. Did express that i wasn't very happy at myu current job partly was because of the environoment and also the job. Felt quitie cheated as i thought that my job will be hectic and has lots to learn but it turns out otherwise. He suggested me to send my resume to try at his place. If it really works, i really hope i can settle down at a job now. So tiring to change job.

My Bdae!!!

Hey!!! This is a late blog. ok... I know i had been busy the whole weekend since i took friday off, i had a long weekend but that's not an excuse for not blogging. Ok.. Not much things to talk about, shall let the photos talk instead....

Lets start from driving there.. See how disturbed dear was when i started taking phota and he was driving un heavy rain.

And of course... The birthday girl's picture!!

We arrived at Pregos erm.. shortly before 1830 i think and this is our starter. The calamaries!!

This soup was in Itallian but it is cream of asparagus+potato and truffle oil.

This is prawn dumpling!! and the bisque really made it tasted so "hei mee"

Dear's dish for the night. He wanted to order cow but since i can't eat cow, he have to sacrifice.

Enojying my dumpling...

Poor thing.. ordered to stop by me to take pictures..

Why was i so shy?

Because i had this bottle!!!

Happy birthday to me!!

And.. due to the rain, we could not get to Singapore flyer and chose the end the day with a movie.

Gotta thank YX for wishing me happy birthday in her blog!! so touched... and i am falling for her...

i just had my wisdom teeth and 4 premolar removed. Now my cheek is so swollen and i hope this is the peak it will go. Show you people my teeth after i took photo of it. pain~ dear said i was being too ambitious to remove all 8 teeth at the same time. But its better to fetch me from hossie once dan twice right? kuku man...

breakie!!

How many of you can be as fortunate as me to have home-made breakfast once in a while? Don't envy.. Buahahhaa!! If you have a sister who can bake and a mum who can cook, you will probably turn into a glutton like me!!! I am not fat ok.. though i am trying hard to lose some excessive and unsightly fats, i am still not fat! that's a way to hypnotise myself and ok.. i admit i am a little fat can... hate to do this..

Let me share my breakie for this week. In case you don't understand the Gina's language breakie = breakfast. So what's for breakie this week??

Ta da!!!

Ok.. i read from Fannie's blog aka Ethyl's blog that Ethyl called the cookies animal kingdom. So i shall speak her language as well. This was my erm... Monday or Tuesday breakie.. I don't quite remember. But who care when was it eaten right as long as its cute and its edible. Ok.. really don't bear to eat this but look what i have in this. I have a hippo, Elephant, star, bear and flower. The bear and flower were under the ela and star. I managed to get a pic of the bear but not the flower. thanks sis!! The cookies taste real nice!! It was seperated into my breakie and my tea time in the afteroon.




This is the bear!!!!!! Looks like ginger bread bear right???!! Buahahhaa!!



I will definately remember when i ate this. This is today's breakie!! I managed to stomach half of it in the morning and the left over will probabl be eaten in the afternoon. This is NOT the left over from what i had stomached. This was exactly what i looked like when Uncle Lim gave it to me this morning. Ok.. It looked like someone had eaten it prior to my enjoyment. So this was what i asked Uncle Lim this morning:

Me: U took a bite of this arh?!
Uncle Lim: No, I took two bites on it.

From the above conversation, i think this brownie was seperated by hand instead of knife. Ok.. nevermind, the brownie still tased as good as it was suppose to!! Ok.. allow me to describe the breakie. It smelled like Coco Crunch!!! and tasted like erm.. brownie chocolate!! Buahaha!! But whatever the taste was, it was heavenly, so too difficult to describe!! As for what's the nuts on top of this?? I dont know. You can probably ask my sister by clicking on Ethyl's blog.



To end this, I wanna tell everyone don't envy me ok??? It's difficult to come by a sister with the fetish habit to bake. So i am fortunate. Buahahhaa!!! Ya ya!! And one last thing to mention!! happy Birthday to me!!! Shall blog all my pressies and Birthday pics once I celebrate it today!!! Don't be too excited because there might be a disppointment..

Sudden thoughts

Ok.. our conversation goes like this...

CCL: Eh.. i wish you happy birthday first arh..
Me: ok! Thanks! scared that you will forget my birthday right?
CCL: no. scared i too busy to tell you. got alot of assignments..
Me: oh.. ok...
CCL: we meet some time after may ok?
Me: sure! no problem.. I got alot of things to tell you...
CCL: then why you never call me?
Me: you always so busy..
CCL: sorry la... but we meet after may ok?
Me: ok!

Who is CCL? Not quite sure if he is a new name in my blog.. Hmm... ok.. he is my good friend from P3.. We knew each other since 9 year old and is still having this on-going-intimate-friends relatonship. Don't get the wrong idea. on-going-intimate means we can talk about any thing and everything without even realising that we are of different gender. Probably because we knew each other too well and we are too close. I had not met this guy since erm.. i forgot when. Butits sometime around when transformer started. I went to meet him for a very short while after my movie with dear at orchard. He was always there at Orchard so i know where i can find him. There were twice i think we met each other while crossing the road at Orchard. So see how fate can link the both of us up even on the streets. I really don't usually see my good friend just in the middle of no where while crossing the road except him. My parents and family used to think we were a couple but were all very very shocked that we were not when my sisters told them about it. They think we were too close and ya.. he helped me out 2 years ago when i celebrated my 21st birthday. He was wearing white shirt and he helped me started fire and i ended up quarrelling with my dad cause he had already reached the park. My dad really likes him alot and he only smile to CCL and even remembered his name without me knowing. CCL in whole.. is a busy guy who is very popular among girls. When we were younger people think we have a couple look but i doubt so now because he will be removing his braces in bout 6 more months and mine will be on in 1 month....

calm and cool doesn't mean no blues

Can you imagine, i had been in the office since 0755 till now and had not even visited the dirty toilet????!! Yesh, had been very very busy the whole morning until i forgot that i have to shit and pee! What's the sudden work load? It's not actually the increase in work load due to my newly added accounts (i had officially took over another 2 accounts from my US counter part and makes my total number of accounts 5) but is more of a payment + shipment issue. AND i am STILL SOLVING it now. I am not complaining that i am busy but is rather happy because i had not have this kinda work load since erm.... i left GE. BuahaahahA!!

I am feeling much better now, probably because its the last few days of my mensus and usually it will brighten my greys at this time. Partly was because dear was able to be back on Thurs morning to celebrate my Birthday on that fateful evening as well. I wasn't feeling that excited as the excitement had been washed by all the quarrels. Dear called yesterday at 2343hr as i had smsed him to call me after his work and i would be waiting for him. Buahaha!! but i went to slumberland before he called and was kinda mumbling to him. He was at least sweet enough to tell me that he is confirm flying back on Thursday morning and we finally spoke in harmony. No arguements and he finally said good night after so many days. Ok.. he will usually say good night everytime we hang up except for the past few hot days due to the heated arguements. Daddy wasn't behaving like himself this morning.. I wonder what's troubling him. He was listening to his music from his mobile phone and the volume was so loud that it woke me up before 5 this morning. Another thing he did was to switch off my heater and caused me to bathe in cold water. I doubt he bathed because his clothes were still at the basin in the master bedroom toilet while he slept on the sofa in he living room. Now it makes me wonder what time did he reached home...

Photos!!!

I just loaded some photos from my camera and feels like sharing it!! Here it goes:

This was the photo taken last Sat/Sun. Nice?? So far, this is the bez photo taken for the three of us (this year). Same position as per those taken at Bintan last year!!



My first Birthday pressies!! Suppose to be Dear's pressie to be first but never mind.. ok.. the Hallmark box was from Becca and QY. The Coach box was from my dear sisters!! Shall reveal the contents after my Birthday!



Ok... Our Valentine's day dinner... lets see...

Dear was Trying to act cool while i took this photo. I think the photo as a whole looks very nice other than him. So ignore him...


And what did we had that evening? It starts with the greens, so i suggested Sambal chilli and dear suggested Xiao Kai Lan..



So in order to eat healthy, we ordered fish fillet because one whole fish was too much for 2 people + I hate fish bones and are afraid of them..


Here's the main!! Our Chilli crabs!! Too bad the fried man tou came too late and my hands are dirty.. Nevermind, they will appear some how later...


After our dinner!!




Because the crabs died in an "unglorified" manner, i decided to make them as pretty as they were before they were eaten. So now look at the "glorified" death of the crabbies!! With man tou in the middle. I am a genius aren't i??


And now, let me share with you the photos of my little kids my family little kids... If you ever have aunties or mummy like my sisters and me, your kid will probably be traumatized by this when he grow older. This is little Lleroy (alien) at 2+ months old and was dressed in his Ethyl jie jie's dress. Horrible we can we go??



She looks so sweet right? This is a younger version of Devils wear Prada.. Buahahhaa!!

Another hurting day...

Yesh.. I cried the whole night again... This never ending quarrel which had been on-going for days finally kinda settled after yesterday's show down. His voice is clear over the phone that he was stressed and did not wanna talk about this any more. Even when he was the one who said he did not wana mention it, any slightest thing in the conversation will link to the topic. And finally he said that he will make sure he return in time for my birthday (and what if he can't? theres no diff in celebrating it without him). I felt so tired for the draggy topic and our quarrel. Jaded... This time i was so hurt and depressed to an extend that any other thing that happened either on me or around no longer interest me at all. Even when people said that i was being rude in my message and returned with a long-draggy-equally-rude message, i have no intention to start another spark from there. I don't feel like talking to anyone any more... Don't feel like doing so many things.. My emotions had totally consumed me again and i have to fight to keep my work done and my day fulfilled to stop the tears.

He knew i was crying yesterday night because we got quite heated and a second line came in his phone. Hung up cause i thought he had asked me to and it ended up as a misunderstanding. We continued our conversation and almost started another heated arguement even when he keep saying he don't wana talk about that any more and will hang up if i start it. Now see who's the one talking. At this end you were telling me not to speak a thing about that frustrating struggle we had been facing and here you started the topic again. During the conversation after he had said his piece, i was totally left with zero mood to talk about anything. Conversation goes on...

D: why are you so quiet?
M: I am in bad mood.
D: Dan bad mood have nothing to say other dan that i can't return for your birthday? (see... asked people not to talk about this and start the spark again)
M: You asked me not to talk about it, now who's talking.
Dear remained silent for 5 sec.
D: its going to rain soon. heavy rain.
M: oh.. my place rained yesterday night as well. And there's thunder. ytd night was really very scary. The maid..
D: What did you tell Shawn? must be complaining about me right?
M: Not complaining. I was asking whether i had done anything wrong or should i not do it.
D: Oh.. So is getting some advice la.. I don't like to be compared.
M: I am not comparing. Yes, is to get some advice, you can also get some opinion. probably you will ask your boyfriend. I thought you said you don't wana talk about this?
D: I know what my boyfriend will say. If you are going to talk about this i will hang up.
M: Look who's talking. you are the one who started it right? i was about to tell you that yesterday night was so scary. The maid was even louder than the thunder.
D: Oh.. My maid also shout very loud what...

Bla bla bla and the story continues to bout 2 more minutes before we hung up because he was going to drink milo with another colleague. Before we hung up, he told me to stop crying. i was feeling much better than yesterday and needed some time to be in a box. Allow me to isolate myself before i start to plan the gathering again. I am in no mood to talk or anything, just let me isolate myself for a moment and clear up my emotions before i can think and talk and act practically. My current energy had been used up for my work during office hours. Friends.. if you happen to read this and at the same time happened to be looking for me, please give me some time to change back to myself before i really starts to plan any gathering. Sorry for being emo.. but i think its time for me to learn how to handle this and it will be best for me to be calm and quiet during this period.