Stupid!

This is real stupid... I wanna msg CL something bout "someone" and i actually msg that "someone"... Haiz... That's the reason... I think too much of him that i actually cant believe that i actually msg him... luckily he did not know who i am... guess he dun understand the content... So what if he understand... I won't affect him much actually... what am i doing man... I am getting confused also...

Just dreams or nightmares?

Tell me i am really thinking too much. I was having dreams these two days that seems so real and its as though its really happening to me.. The day before i dreamt of myself and R.. We were happily shopping at Orchard as if it was so REAL!! Like the previous half day i took. Yesterday i wonder whether it was really a nightmare. I dreamt of an ex of mine.. I was at my friend's house just like this year's new year.. The nly one different thing was that they no longer wanna play games with me.. I went home earlier and i boarded a bus to my god-ma house and on the way.. i was so sad that i messaged R. After i messaged him, i realised that the person sitting beside me is HIM!! I mean my ex... I got a shocked and alight and ran to my god-ma house. He was chasing after me and i asked him to get off my back. Finally i went to my god-ma house and hid inside. After a while, I asked my sister whether he was still standing outside or not. Her reply to me was NO! Some part of me cursed him why didn't he waited outside? I might went out... Maybe that's probably what fate is trying to tell me. He does not belong to me anymore.. He will not wait outside for me... and allow me to be a tyrant in his life anymore... Why was i so affecte by the dream and was thinking of him the whole day... OMG! what's in me man? People already have a girlfriend and is very close... Why am i still thinking of him? I also had my boyfriend who is very close to me.. Why am i still thinking so much? Hmm... Hopefully R won't get to know bout it.. Otherwise he will say he saw regrets in my eyes again... I dun wanna let him think that i can't let go of my ex.. And i wanna let him know how much he mean to me...