Friday, February 29, 2008

unreasonable

Sometimes you can say that I am unreasonable and I agree that I am. This time, it is a different matter. I DON'T fcuking agree that I am unreasonable and totally DON'T agree that I am even at fault! Here's the story behind my temper:

I was suppose to meet dear and his friend for dinner (i did not know that his friend's colleague was there as well). At first, they set it at Choa Chu Kang and dear will pick me up at some where near my place where i alight from the bus. Then, I rushed off from work to take the early train and I knew that I will be able to skip the crowd and take the early bus. So as normal, I was at my normal returning home route when dear called me to tell me that they changed the destination to Woodlands (i was on the phone with Angie). Since the bus I take will go to Woodlands, I went ahead with my journey. One thing weird about yesterday was that there was a jam at PIE which it seldom happen for the bus I took. Ok.. fine.. Since my house is damn near Woodlands, I knew that i will be able to make it at 7. So the bus was travelling at a very fast speed after BP, and my heart was at ease until we ALMOST REACH Kranji. There was a massive jam! All vehicles going that way will U turn and take the alternative, too bad mine is a bus.

I smsed dear: Jam
Dear: wru?
Me: some where near Kranji buy haven reach Kranji

Bout 20 Mins later he called me (at this time the bus driver said he will skip Kranji and diverse to the expressway and exit to Marsiling).

Dear: where are you?!?
Me: Told you i am near Kranji right?
Dear: still there? why so long?
Me: already said there's a jam right? The road is so damn messed up, the bus have to diverse out and take the alternative. All roads to the causeway is packed and I duno the situation at the expressway.
Dear: so long! here got hungry people... Can you take train?
Me: I can't even alight here. and the bus can't even move much!
Dear: so troublesome. You go home and eat la!
Me: ok bye!

And I really hang up. I was already at Kranji and the jam really made me so impatient! People who take bus will really understand this. When the bus was stuck in the jam it will keep jerking as it roll and stop and roll and stop. It really makes me feels like PUKING and is really very uncomfortable to sit in the bus for so long. I know that he had waited long with his friend but at certain time, things just should not be said that way! When i got into the car at Causeway Point, he told me to stop being angry and our conversation stop after i told him"some times you just have to think before you speak!".

My face was very very black the whole night and seldom talk. His friend should have noticed it when he excuse himself with his colleague leaving the 2 of us together. And all our conversation was a question from him and an one word answer from me. I was not as angry now thou but was still quite angry over this. We had serveral conversations when he just spout brainless answer and we just forget about it. Well, i still need some time to cool down from his brainless answer (if he think that that's not what he had meant and is just joking, that joke is not funny!).

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Lalalala..

YEAH!! After such a long wait finally it's pay day!! Everytime 2 weeks before this time of the year, i will start to calculate how much i had spent and how much i can save for my Aussie trip. Had been very strict on myself recently to discipline my expenditure. Had decided to cease all buying activity unless neccessary. Had seen quite good improvement on this month's CC bill. Usually i will spend about 1.5k a month on CC bill and now i can see that i am spending bout half of it this month! Great improvement!! Hmm... If any one is thinking that the expenditure is too high.. Kindly be reminded that this is a very fierce month. My dear's birthday, V day, and my niece and nephew late xmas pressies... ok.. and plus i have to go dentist to prepare for my braces and wisdom tooth extraction.. all these cost money ok... I was still thinking if i should increase my mum's allowance. Actually promised her to increase in Mar because my CC instalments are due in Mar and i have spare cash (judging the way i spend my money previously). Probably i can do it in May.

Hmm.. If that is the case than i am sharing 1/4 of my bring home with mummy. Also, i promised her that since i will not be getting any bonus from this current company, i will give her half of my aws (it will actually be like $1 more than half). I gave her the same amount previously after i got my FIRST variable bonus last year. Sometimes i wonder if my sisters gave her as much but they have a family so.. no choice.. i will try to spare my cash. And this means, from few months before year end, i will have to save up for xmas pressie.. hey.. if that is the case again.. I have to save more! I still have to contribute to my dad for cny.. SHIT! Can i not buy any xmas pressie this year??

Seriously wonder if anyone will think as much as i do when it comes to money. had been a $_$ since young and when i grow older, my hair will soon reside due to money issue. Had been thinking of the optimum way to save money recently near bed time and will fall asleep while thinking of it. After i am done with my CC instalments, i shall give 1/4 of my money to mummy, 1/4 of it to savings, 1/4 of it to bills, 1/4 for daily spendings. And at the end of every month, i will be broke... until pay day again. Calculated my savings if i am gonna save in that manner, my surgery 2 years later will be a small sum... Buahahahaha!!! That is another reason why i need my current job other than its title.. I gotta stay on because of the pay. Think it will be after my whole braces treatment then i will leave my job. I am just thinking too much.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Its finally over..

Yesh! The storm is over! but is this the start of the end or the end of the start? We shall see.. So tired. the moment i reach home I think of this issue and the moment i reach office i gotta check on this issue. Its always my priority to do them first because they have a troublesome and stupid manager. When i was so happy that all the stupid stuff are cleared, i receive the email from this brainless woman. WTH!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Certain things are just unfair! No point saying so much since this happens every where.. Shall not probe into it any further.. This is just a phase and will pass after this week.. But gotta thanx the email last evening to warn me against this unfriendly gust of wind that swept me off the ground. Once again thank you very much TSL...

Ok.. shall not blog about the unhappy things that happens at work. It will always repeat so theres no point clinging onto it.. Went for a dinner with dear yeserday evenig. It was kinda sudden as he requested that near 4pm and i know that mummy had already cooked my dinner but i still went for dinner with dear. This is one kinda dinner i enjoy alot. Because he is kinda quiet most of the time (or i am just plainly too talkative), we are usually quiet during dinner (except my horrible laughter). He came out with quite alot of scenarios and asked from the point of view of a female. and since we finished our dinner super early as both of us reached Bugis very early, i requested for a walk before we go home. Window shopping is always healthy for both of us as we chat and walk and take a look at alot of things but don't buy it. It was suppose to be so until we came across the Braun Buffle counter. I didn't know dear likes BB as much as i do. I always think this is a good brand. The conversation goes like this (and it starts from a counter of another brand *dun remember):

Dear, holding the multi purpose travel wallet: This is good. you wana buy for me? (i had not got him a V day present)
Me: What is this?
Dear: For travelling use la! So that you can put everything together duh.. I should get one since i travel so often.
Me: Than if you lose this you will lose everything as well.
Dear: Nobody will think of losing it right *!%^&

Walked over to BB and dear was looking around.
Dear: You should buy a watch holder for me. Hmm.. better not.. Its very expensive
Me: What?
And he walked over to see the luggage while i look at the card holder.
Wanted to get him the name card holder actually and was checking at it but he doesn't seem to be interested.
Me: You want? I buy for you? But i think it suits me because of the mirror inside.
Dear: You can get me a keyholder.
Me: Oh! so you want a keyholder? Why didn't you say so earlier? You want? I buy for you?
Dear: Lets go.
After walking to Renoma counter, he told me he used to use BB before he changed to LV.

We walked down and i managed to persuade dear to tell me if he really wants it. In the end we walked back again.
Me: Ok.. why not you chose and i pay?
Dear looked around for keyholder and finally decided on keypouch.
Holding 3 keypouches at the time, Dear: Hmm.. I like the smooth leather but it will get scratched easily.
Me: Ya... and the soft leather will turns out to be like my wallet.
Dear: your wallet is soft skin?
Me: Yeah.. Soft pig skin. See.. i dun even use cow as wallet.
Dear: Rubbish! You chose la.. since you are paying.
Me: You chose la.. since you are using.
Dear: Ok! Then i will take the soft leather.
Me: Huh.... But the soft leather will get scratched as well.. See... (scratching the wallet with my long nails)
Dear: You are destroying people's key pouch.
Me: Buahahhaha! Why not you get this? (holding a pouch with printed design) your wallet also have prints right?
Dear: Then we take this lor... Since you are paying.
Me: But you are using. What do you think?

And after much struggle, we bought the key pouch with printed design. Buahahaha! and the above conversation is part of what we had yesterday.. not too much in details cause i can't remember much as well. So long since i last blog on a conversation.

Monday, February 25, 2008

A dependent/independent decision

Went tom the dental specialist on Friday which was suppose to have my first appointment on the braces checked. It was suppose to be a very very normal day for me but it tired me out with this shocking news that the dental specialist told me. Like i had said in the previous blog, I needed support for this decision. I almost could not hold myself together for the rest of the day and at that point of time all i needed was a familiar shoulder. I needed him to be by my side to face all these while i made the decision. Yes again, its not his fault as its his job that he had to fly. But he gave me the support through internet. I can feel it as i had sms-ed him that afternoon and he went back to the hotel quite early that evening.

It is a 100% that i will get my braces done this year. But before i make the decision on the kinda treatment i wanna do, i gotta think carefully whether i wanna straighten my teeth or i wanna cure my problem. I do see that mummy with a certain percentage of guilt in her eyes and was supportive with my decision. Well, she already know my decision as i am old enough to decide for myself on the things i wana do. She do understand (though i did said it --> too honest) that this problem can be easily solved if i had my treatment done earlier and a surgery can be avoided. And now, it's too late to think of the past since we can't turn back time. The specialist wanted me to discuss with my family or even better, ask my family to go for the next appointment with me. He doesn't want me to rush into a decision because when a surgery is involve, risk is there... Ya.. Braces will be done and a Orthognathic surgery is also involve for my treatment. That's my decision. With the support of my love ones. I was scared, really scared that what will happen to me after that. Well, after all, the surgery will be done 2 years later and let me use that chance to slim down (trying very very hard to be as optimistic as possible) since i can't eat solid food or chew.

Ok.. apart from this, dear was back on sat!!! So happy!! I always knew that flight from Penang will arrive earlier than the scheduled time and i went to airport early (rubbish here.. i went to get some things from my friend at Aljunied before her class that's why i was at the airport super early). As usual i will fetch him and go back to his place with him. This time round, after i told him what i want, he got the correct gift back for me!! YEAH!! My Dior Addict 2!!! Love it so much that i had been using it these few days. Actually this perfume was my love since bout 2 years ago but did not get it as i think it's too expensive (Bout $40 more than my Provocative). Since i am not a very "perfumy" person, i'll usually make do with a bottle of perfume. And one last update!! We FINALLY had our V day dinner!!!!!!! At Red House.. an unusual one cause its a messy chinese dinner. And that's CHILLI CRAB (dear have craving on that even before he return from M'sia)!! Shall upload the photos when i am free..

Friday, February 22, 2008

Important date

Today is the day whereby a major decision was made by me. Mummy had been supportive these few months on my decision and now she have to be as supportive as well. This could be use as a lesson to teach the younger generation or rather ourselves on how to take care of the children. I used my example to both my sisters and told them that it is important for their children to see a dental specialist as young as possible and follow them through the growing up process.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Dreamy

Let me start with my ordeal for the last 2 days. I was ready to go online to wait for my sweety when i can't connect to my wireless!! *panic. Called Singnet and can't connet to myt modem using cable as well!! *panic x2. Spoke to the patient man from Singnet Technical Support for bout 30 mins and finally hung up as there's no help to my lappy. Called dage and QY for help but to no avail as both are sleepy. Tried all ways and means on my own and FINALLY i got connect using cable! The uneasy me decided to try again yesterday night, after my sis told me that they changed the modem password. *%^!@! in thoughts. Went ahead and called singnet again since i am able to connect to my modem using cable. This time the patient lady guide me through and finally my wireless is connected!! So what's the problem? The kuku Singnet Technical Support who helped my sis to change my modem password did not guide my sis to change the wireless password in my computer. AND the kuku told her that there is no need to change it in my lappy! * @#$@^ in thoughts again. WTH! Are you able to open a door with the wrong key??????? What a kuku.. But never mind, since i had solved my wireless problem i shall not change my password again, just in case my sis wanna use my wireless again. Actually why it did not occur to my sis that i am actually using my international password which they know???? Buahahhaa!!

Oh... the ever gossipy me is hunting for entertainment news again!!! This time i came across Korean entertainment news. Oh! This brought back my love for Kim Jae Won and decided to look up on his news. The last time i ever saw him on screen was in Jolin Tsai MV. Ok.. In case anyone who read this and don't know who this handsome, cute Korean guy is, he appeared in Jolin Tsai's mv in 特务J as the first guy to be killed by her. What a waste to see my Kim Jae Won died. Haiz.. My poly friends will know that i had been crazy bout him since Poly and fantasize alot on him. Oh!! Buahahaha!! Long live Kim Jae Won!!

Had been quite bored ever since i changed my job. Nobody to exchange gossips as this office is toooooooooo QUIET!! At least i still have Angie to discuss entertainment gossips and exchange our information. Not only that, we also exchange shopping websites (mostly provided my Angie) and products information.. Miss that kinda days alot!! Even after Ho Tzu Ming had left SG, no more movie lobang from him... Miss him as well.

Update: Just when i was complaining here that no gossip khaki around, Angie called me and exchange news on the scandal!! And i read up on Lindsay Lohan posing nude for photoshoot as Marilyn Monrue..

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Sugar darling & some news

I think i should call him sugar in future. He is such a sweet baby/darling/dear.. He knew about my diminishing interest in facebook and decided to help me out instead. Help me log in and feed my "rubbish", race my car, bike and plane. So sweet right?? Can't help but to miss him so much for the things he had done for me. Not only the facebooking things la.. of course there are more that he had done. Leaving all the planning to me while he do the final backend thing (which is to pay $$). Remind me on my spendings and maintain as sweet as he is. Sometimes, i wonder is it due to our distance that he is so caring. Because that is usually not the case when he is in SG. Hmm..... but nevertheless, i still love him..

An update to add on to my read gossip online. Guess many of you already know this "old news" on Edison Chen. Honestly speaking, me being as gossipy as ever, read up about some news on him... Am seriously waiting for him to reply on that scandal. Think from all these scandal days, we still see some sad piece of news. Lydia Sum is pronounced dead from her liver cancer.. so sad. She had always been my favourite comedian since young. But i think probably her fans are expecting this because she had been ill for so long. And one last thing.. Forgot to talk about this when it ended.. FINALLY writers' strike is OVER at hollywood!!!! looking forward to watch my Grey's Anatomy!! So exciting *drool*!!! STOP torturing me with no Grey's Anatomy.. *looking forward to it..

Monday, February 18, 2008

Monday Blue

Received a ridiculous and childish conversation yesterday.. will not blog about it because had decided to remain silent and move on since i had not heard or ask anything about this for months and my stand remains. Even a topic of similar was brought up, it will become a full stop at me and asked to shut up on those who bring it up. All knows that i would not wana be involve in any topic bout * as * is too close to me. I was offended at first but decided to let go as i treat it as a growing up process. It is not a challenge and one have to learn to understand. No one is a winner nor loser. It is how you handle certain situation as a mature adult.

Hmm.. not so blue today as this week i am only working for 4 days!!! finally my long wait to braces is coming.. Friday will be my first appointment and also the decision making day (not much decision to make coz i had already decided on doing it!). Crossing my fingers that dear will be back and no more hiccups this week.. god.. if you are listening please help me.. Buahahhaaha!! Going waxing again!!

Dear had been very supportive when he is needed to. Really appreciate his effort on everything and remain as sweet during certain time. When asked why is he doing certain thing he will reply "bec ause my girlfrend is bla bla".. Sweet right? love him so much...

Friday, February 15, 2008

disappointment~ one after another

Cant help but felt disappointed AGAIN. Was having lunch.. Q-ing to get my food when a sms from this familiar number came. and it says "Sorry dear. Think need to extend for a week". WTH! I was so happy that mext week i am only working for 4 days and can celebrate our late V day on thurs and i receive this thing. Was counting down to tuesday this morning when i wake up. Really hate it!!! No motivation now...

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentines' Day!!

Ya, received a sms this morning. First sms on thius day will never fail to be him. It was him last year, its him again this year. This fateful day without him is really very very sad. Received a surprise this morning from dear! Kinda expected actually and i guessed he knew that i knew it after he request for my namecard last week. Buahaha!! he likes to send flowers to my office.. Had not have the chance to take photo with the boutique.. hmm.. think better ask my sis to help me later when i reach home.. Buahaha!! Though this is not a very surprising surprise, i am still very very happy to receive it from him. Thanks Dear! *Some more add ons to the pics..

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Excited

How many more months to go?? Wanna go Aussie... surfing for alot of things and is very very excited.. Please dun steal this excitement away...

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Grumpy

Really kinda getting irritated with all these arrangements and is getting grumpy..

STOP going overseas during ALL occassion!!!! For Xmas, NYE or V day!! Getting so irritated and that's not a joke!!!

Monday, February 11, 2008

Happy New Year!!!!

Happy Rat Year everyone!!!! This is definately a long weekend break for all because there's a FOUR DAYS break! And this 4 days i did nothing but GAMBLE my way through!! buahahhaha!! Of course its a visiting period to different relatives house. Because i have a very big family 3 days out of 4, i visited 3 relatives places. Its usually a gathering period for my family during this time. When i say 3 relatives it doesn't mean my own family only, i mean, the gathering was held at 3 different places with (almost) everybody present. And this usually needs a very big place to contain all of us, so it will never be my house when it comes to this kinda gathering. Most probably some relatives will have to sit at the coridor if its at my place.. Buahahha!!! Like what dear always says, my family is really BIG. Nevertheless, we do contirbute ALOT to the noise pollution at the area we land.. Buahahaha!!! For examples yesterday, when i called mummy to ask for the unit number of my 3rd uncle's house, she told me, "its level 3, at the corner, just listen to the noisiest corner and you will find us." @_@

Let me digress now.. Really hope for some improvement recently. Here's another thing i am not able to celebrate, and that's Valentines' Day. Really had not celebrated this day for very very long. Ok we chuck the stupid coffee and cookie celebration 2 years ago aside, come to think of it i had not been celebrating it after LF and that's like FIVE years! OMG! Like people always says, there is no need to celebrate it as it's V day everyday. But i had not really celebrated V day can. and i wana celebrate it can! Dear is going overseas for that day. His boss called him yesterday and actually wanted him to fly today but he rejected and may be flying tomorrow (we are suppose to celebrate early and the fateful day is also tomorrow). So angry when i heard that and almost called his boss up to slap him left, right, center! He was telling me after he return and for the first time we discussed our Aussie trip in the car!! I like him to be involved in the planning as well. This made me feels that I am not deciding on everything and at least he agrees on the search. Well, one thing he can be sure is that his "spoiled" girlfriend will never wanna stay in any hotel below 4*. It is als good that at least i will be the one searching while he will be the one checking the location. Hopefully everything turns out ok... buahaha!! ok.. let me start my search again. We still have 6 months to go but probably bout 3 months to plan because we have to book.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

feebie

Gosh.. this morning woke up and was kinda devastated. My first instinct was to check my nails which were done yesterday and it was badly destroyed my me last night... ARGH!! Gotta save it tonight when i get home and shall stop doing manicures at night near bed time. Painted both my hands and legs red!! SO.......... bloody.. Buahahahaha~!!

Dear boss is a stupid idiot as well.. wanted to send him to Penang at this kinda festive time??!! Cumon! you are a chinese as well and you should know the importance of CNY right? you can damn jolly well row back to Taiwan for your reunion with family and you dare to suggest to let my bf go Msia! Some more the customer already agree to see a caucassian can! Idiot! your boss already agree to send somebody else can. Stop being so stupid and selfish. In whole.. i just think that his boss is a MCP! *angry

Since the new year is approaching, i shall stop cursing. To my friends, if you are unhappy, please forget it for this period and enjoy the long weekend. Happy CNY!

Monday, February 04, 2008

Weekend update~

Ok.. last weekend was quite an eventful weekend. When i talk about eventful ,its usually in the evening. There was a birthday celebration for dear last friday by his friends and he wanted me to go with him so i went. That was quite an unhappy night for me. The dinner with his another group of friends was fine and then we proceed to the nearby club where his friend reserved a table for him. Everything was fine and i enjoyed taking the photos until about 3am, there's suddenly a group of stupid idiots who came near our table and eventually stepped into our bounderies.

Cumon! that's a reserved seat and its the kinda priority sofa seats can! Without even asking for permission you guys just happily joined in and even put your fcuking alcohol on our table. MOST IMPORTANTLY don't you know that it is a non smoking area for ALL CLUBS in SINGAPORE?? and one by one you guys just light up your fcuking cigerettes. At that point of time i just hope that someone will come over catch this group of fcuking idiots and fine them! its a FINE country and you PAY for what you shouldn't do! I was so damn bloody irritated and tired that i stood up and told dear I AM LEAVING! Can't stand sitting there for even a second longer! Dear.. sorry i ruined the party your friends had arranged for you..

Anyway, his friends are nice people and tried to make him drunk that night. We drove there after i jokingly told him that i will drive him back. As he took it for real, i really have to drive him back that day. We left slightly after 3am i think and he slept till 1 plus the next day (yes he is a PIG! a fat PIG who sleeps alot!). He promised me he won't sleep till 3pm and in fact he woke up before that and went to sleep again at 3pm.

Gotta wake him up and go for dinner with me as i had reserved a seat at original sins (click on the word "original sins" to see the website.. the link wasn't obvious). Buahahhaa!! If you guys really believe my "exotic" food claim, that is just to keep him in suspense. Made him think that i will bring him to some "bloody" restaurant for lotza meats! but too bad, its time for some vege. Love that restaurant alot! This is the second time i'm there for food. The staffs there are very very nice and friendly (highly recommend this restaurant). The couple beside us wished dear happy birthday after we (one of the staff and me) sang him a birthday song when the complimentry tiramisu arrived. He finally saw his gift!! Buahaha.. so happy when he mentioned he was quite happy with it.. Hehehehe.... Really hope he was surprised by this arrangement. Shall load the pics when i am free (again).