Recently

Realize something recently... Adrian (from school) was sms-ing me and he told me something which makes me realized that i had actually forgotten about myself... He said he wanna see me smile like how i used to... I had been trying hard to smile ever since that incident happened... Its tough to pick myself up... Even now i am trying super hard to maintain my lifestyle... go back to how i used to spend my time before everything... Another question taht i faced recently was "whos the right one?" which i practically cant answer at all... I always complained that so and so is not the right one... but when i was being ask that question i really cant answer.... Coz i duno the answer...

I'm not missing you

Here's a new song to share... I love this song alot and here's the lyrics... You can also try to catch this song every night @ 98.7... I luv it at night coz e DJs will definately broadcast this song!

Ooh? I'm not missin' you? (Hmmm)?
Stanza 1
Been through just about everything, That I could go through,
When it comes to relationships.
Don't know what I was missing Or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it.
But here I go, Hurt again. Cause of my curiosity.
Now that it's over, What else could it be, Besides a cheat?
Pre-Chorus
I made a promise never to settle, Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heart break, cryin' and cheatin', The fooling around.
But i'm not missin' you...
Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me.
I'm not missin' you.
You mighta had me open, But I must be goin' because,
I got lots to do.
I know i'm usually hanging on, I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different; I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you...
Stanza 2
It's a shame in way, Cause I feel that I may not Ever find the right one for me.
Did I leave him this year, Right n front of my face (oh).
Will my love ever be?
Why would I go, on a search again?
When I know what the end will be.
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
Pre-Chorus
I made a promise never to settle, Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heart break, cryin' and cheatin', The fooling around.
But i'm not missin' you...
Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me.
I'm not missin' you.
You mighta had me open, But I must be goin' because,
I got lots to do.
I know i'm usually hanging on, I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different; I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you... (repeat 2x)
Bridge
No, I can't be with you Cause i'm sacred.
Felt like I was falling when you left me.
I can't keep going through life Unaware of what i'm missing Or the person that I could be.
Love's good when it's right.
Bad, when it's left in you memory.
All the times, and anytime.
I guess love would be nice for someone, as this life...
I'm not missin' you...
Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me.
I'm not missin' you.
You mighta had me open, But I must be goin' because,
I got lots to do.
I know i'm usually hanging on, I used to hate to see you go (i used to hate it).
Different... (don't feel the) distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you...
Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me. (knocking at my door)
You mighta had me open, But I must be goin' because, (this is the best day of my life)
I know i'm usually hanging on, I used to hate to see you go.
Different... (don't feel the) distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you......
(Ohhh) I'm not missin' you...
No baby... I'm not missin' you...

My Dreams

Had a dream on saturday night... I dreamt of QS.. In the dream.. She was back on a holiday... Funny enough.. That holiday is actually a few days.. and true enough it is something like her coming Sept holidays... Buahaha... I told her yeterday that I dreamt of her.... I seemed to have miss her too much.. So much that i dreamt of her... Buahaha!!!
Another thing i would like to mention is actually my recent dream.. A target to acheive using the rest of my life span... I always had an impression that i was born to climb the corporate ladder... And its my life acheivement.. But as i aged.. realized something which most women will especially those in a relationship... I am still single.. But i realize that one day i will get hitched and there are so many things to consider.. If i concentrate so much on my career.. And if i climbed up... What are the things that i have to give up..? Opportunity cost.. Will i lose my family instead...? Will i lose my future partner...? That's one thing which i had been thinking.. I am now so young and energized.. I can climb my ladder.... Will that make other people feel distance from me?? I really duno... I have a workaholic nature.. People around me knows that... Other than my mum and dad.. Nothing is as important than my career.. Frenz.. dun get angry when you read this part of the content.. My frenz will always have my support.. And i will always be there... My frenz will beThe equally as important to my work... I know that one thing i have to give up in orer to succeed is my stupidity... Actually.. I am really not thinking of entering another relationship at this point of time... Its more of a hindrance... I am going crazy thinking of increasing amount of money i give to my mum every month.. But i guess there will be no increment for after next year for maybe one or two years... I am also going crazy trying to save money and earn more... Seems like S11 virus had hit me real hard.... Haiz... My dreams...