Bored~

Diao.. super bored.. what can i do???i m dying....

sick~

Diao... having backache from my dance and worse of all the flu and cough... haiz.. backache plus sneeze and cough = pain x 2!! you can feel the emphasis on the back when you sneeze and cough... feeling so dizzy now.. can't even stand this morning and now i m sitting at such weird position because the change of position will incurr the pain and i will shout! haha.. had such a difficult time... my gals are complaining that i am so busy to meet them... in fact yes i am busy... I hope i have more time to spend... or even sleep..... cant get up this morning.... the pain was horrible when i tried to sit up and bend down... i can't even lift myself up.... feel so sleepy now...

Envy me???

I was chatting with W this morning... i told her bout my recent happenings coz it happened so much that our clique of 3 cute gals are in love with the "wrong" guys... She told me that she had always envied my freedom... i can go out with whoever without reporting to any one... sometimes she just wish that she is able to live in this kinda life for a period of time... i told her.. behind all the independence and freedom i hold.. its another kinda lonely life style.... that is why i am drowning myself in the rehearsals and entertainment... its difficult when you cant just be weak for a moment.. ya.. at this point of time.. i have to admit that i am also a female... though not faminine enough but sometimes i yearn for a person to hold me tight n bury me into his chest... Should i succumb to fate? i am not someone who believe in destiny... cumon... we create our fate...
W is not the only one who envied me... S did said that to be once i think... how she wish she is single... diao... why girls happily attahced will envy a lonely girl like me... I don't used to think that being alone is a scary thing until recently.... i have to admit that i don't wana be left on the shelf... if i am not this picky... to chose the one i like.. guess i will be attached now... too bad... this stubborn girl here just like to chose the one she like... and she always believe in her choice instead of situations when people chose her... but take a look at what i have now... my choice wasn't the best... definately is unbelievable... its so different.. but i like him.. and in the end he might not like me.. why am i so persistant?? Since he is not the best.. what am i thinking?? i am thinking of him... i can't stop myself.. it always happened that i said one thing and i will contradict myself the next moment... i need advice!

New skin!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've change it again!!! hows this new skin??? Its in my favorite color!! green!!!!!! so tired recently... had not been sleeping enough plus flu plus gastric pain... haiz.... my health is failing... getting older... Went out with my gal friend on tuesday and was really tired... had dinner at budget T.. We always like to have exortic choice for dinner... had been reaching home late and did not really talk to mummy these few days.. i hate it when we are lack of communication... the ending will always turn out bad... we will quarrel and argue and i will feel guilty... haiz.. why can't my parents just express their love openly instead of their children taking the initiative... This is so sad... *sob*

Saturday Night...

Ya.. its a night full of 30 mins.. after dining with the family i went home, change and went out again when my BEZ fren called.... she had happily arranged a last minute matchmake for me because i laughed at her the other time she had one... Ok.. the whole matchmaking session was fast, shocking, surprising and embarrassing... fainted.. I hopped onto her car and the next thing she told me is.. she had arranged to meet this korean guy with intentions to introduce to me... Hmm.. at least that guy managed to get us a drink before he left to pick his father from the airport... and again.. this BEZ fren of mine had successfully mde me drink my beer so fast just because she was drinking CJ (cranberry juice) on the rock... !#@!@!
I should actually thank this friend of mine so much.... i had been on her emergency call list for years until last 2 years i happened to changed 3 boyfriends in a year and after that i returned to her emergency call list.... what the... this is what i call.. fate...

Happy or not???

Guess feeling happy is quite easy for any one when they are with someone who they think is able to make them happy... why do i say that? ok.. say that i am silly and contradicting myself from my previous blog... I had not went out with him for 2 weeks.... and we went out for a movie yesterday evening.. both of us are in white.. wat a coincidence.... hahaha!! and we were on the phone talking with each other when we happened to be opposite each other.... hahaha!! ok.. let me talk about wednesday night... i was lazily watching tv on mummy's bed when i received his sms.. asking me 2 go St. James... i said i will meet him there but in the end i became a pilot myself... i was already in bed when he sms me to inform me that he had already went in bla bla thats why i did not reply his smses... guess he felt soething real wrong and he asked if i was going.. i said nope.. coz i gotta wake up early... buaahahah!!
When i sms him yesterday afternoon he was already saying someone fly him plane... but i wasn't feeling so well when i met him yesterday.. having minor menstral cramp... this sent him to question why recently when he meet me i keep feeling unwell... hahahaa!! He had been quite nice... actually after 2 weeks of not meeting him i was all ready to return to my emergency call list queen... he really said somethings which made me real happy...
1. I was complaining to him bout how bias was mummy when she did not buy my favorite food when she went Malacca... and he asked me whatz my fav.. i told him its 马蹄酥.. he replied that he can get it for me when he go there next week... hmm.. it may appear to be nothing but it had made me quite happy.. hahahah!! guess i am really crazy....
2. i tied my hair yesterday and he commented that its nice.. hahaha!! Guess this kinda comment came from the right person...
The above mentioned 2 comments sent me to cloud 9 until now... wonder is it because my mensus had changed the hormones or he said the right thing...