Fannie's dream

My sister told me about her dream this morning. It gaves me creep because just before i fell a sleep i heard man coughing in the living room. My initial thought was my dad was back from work but he verified it this morning that he returned home at 11+.. I fell a sleep before 10.. so the cough.. who does it belongs to since i am THE ONLY ONE AT HOME!!!!! Gosh.. this sounded like some creepy ghost story already..

Like I mentioned, my sis told me about her dream. He dreamt of godpa and he told her that he is leaving and will visit me before he move on. The first sefish thought that came across my mind was NO! Not now.. He hadn't seen me in wedding gown. I remembered that he told me he wanted to see me grow up, graduate, pak tor, get married and have children. For the previous mentioned, he only seen the first 9 years of my "grow up" life. So my answer was NO! He cannot leave yet. Not at this moment! He will want to see this.. he want to see this.. 1.5 years more. That's all i ask of him.

On contrary, part of me is happy that he can leave now. He should go if it is the time and it will be good for him. The chance he miss now may not return any more. I shouldn't be so selfish. I once told him to leave in peace. I always knew he is around and never really leave because he is in my heart.

Cry me out

Sometimes during my emo cells are working, I will keep thinking of the unneccessary things. It's like, all that i told you i wanted to share with you, you are now sharing with someone else. It's everyone small details lor.. Hmm.. I ain't jealous but I somehow wonder did my suggestion trigger part of what you are sharing with her. Sometimes i really hope 4 years ago this song was available and i can give you as a gift.

Now i present to you "Cry me out" by Pixie Lott... Enjoy the small details of the song. I will not return no matter what you say or do now. So stop trying to flirt with me.. you already have her.. Part of you can treat her as my replacement, just don't come flirting anymore..

I got you emails

You don't get females now

Do you?

What's in my heart is not in your head

Any way

Mate you're too late

And you ain't the wait

Now were you?

It's out of my hands since you blew the last chance

When you played me

You'll have to cry me out

You'll have to cry me out

The tears that will fall

Means nothing at all

It's time to get over yourself

Baby you ain't all that

Baby there's no way back

You can keep talking but baby i'm walking away

When i found out you messed me about

I was broken

Back then I believed you

Now i don't need ya

No more

The pic on your phone

Proves you ain't alone

She was with you yeah

Now i couldn't care about who, what or where

We're through

You'll have to cry me out

You'll have to cry me out

The tears that will fall

Means nothing at all

It's time you get over yourself

Baby you ain't all that

Baby there's no way back

You can keep talking but baby I'm walking away

Gonna have to cry me out

Gonna have to cry me out

Boy there ain't no doubt

Gonna have to cry me out

Won't hurt a little bit

Boy better get used to it

You can keep talking but baby I'm walking away

You'll have to cry me out

You'll have to cry me out

The tears taht will fall

Means nothing at all

It's time you get over yourself

Cause baby you ain't all that

baby theres no way back

you can keep talking baby I'm walking away

9 months

I was suppose to do this yesterday but it sems like i had not figured out how to use it through my phone... First, gotta wish YX a very happy (belated) birthday!!!!!! I mixed up her date with another friend's again... and lucky i got it rght yesterday. Sorry gal.. seems like i keep mixing up your address, your birthday... not sure of what will comes next...Sorry...

Yesterday marked the 9 months mark! So 9 more months to go.. and i am fully prepared of what may come. YEAH!!! Can't wait.. I am really enjoying this.. How?!