Back from my short break...

ok.. went to Batam for a short break last weekend.... quite a relaxing one... lucky us when we stepped into the resort the sky starts to pour... and in the end we have to stay in the room for the whole afternoon... we went to reserve our spa retreat after lunch and we manage to get a slot at 9pm... so we went back to the room as it was rainy and he slept the whole afternoon and i watched disney channel for the whole afternoon... buahaha... probably i was disturbing him from his sleep most of the time because i hate to see people to sleep infront of me.. buahahaa!!! but i guess i was kind enough to let him have the bed in the afternoon because i went to the living room to watch tv... let me share some of the pictures..

Tired~

SUPER TIRED~!!! scratched my new watch during lunch just now... feels like going to genting for holiday.... but... haiz... dun talk about it... was actually quite happy coz this weekend has no rehearsal and i can go without lying.... but.. haiz... super sian... i wanna go away!!!!!!!!!! take a stupid rest and change my mood!!!

Haiz.. why do i feel so angry after hanging up....? by right i have no right to be angry... shit.. wat is wrong with me?? i am really tired by my mood swing... i am really not sure whether i am still reasonable to talk any more..

Female.....

Ok.. had a really weird dream yesterday night... dreamt of SL and we were bickering like before.. dun get the wrong idea... my before means the period of time when we were bout to end... think i had been thinking of what D had told me so much that i dreamt of him... Its not that i miss him... I do hate him till now.. but lets not talk about this...

Sometimes i think some female intuition is accurate... I am always not the kinda jealous girl whereby i get jealous easily... usually i only feel that when i felt threatened... I do admit that i am being unfair because of my past and this kinda feeling is always so strong when i see her with him.. ok.. tell me i am thinking too much.. she is only sitting beside him having lunch and bla bla.. think the worse thing is this photo which A had shown me... I am not trying to make her my enemy... sometimes certain feeling about me is very accurate and i trust my feelings when it comes... so this time round i decided to trust myself... ok.. who am i to be jealous? haiz..

I dun wanna be your friend....

Toni dear sent this song to a afew of us in office and i fell in love with it.....

I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing Just stay away baby
Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say you'll just stay in touch baby
I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin' Goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want is just to be free from you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Just go now, go now

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

You take it casually, baby it's killing me Goodbye, goodbye
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before No baby
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I'm not over you yet
And I don't want to be your friend
I don't want to be your friend
Don't call me Don't come around And I don't wanna be your friend

Feeling lost again....

Had a talk with CL last night.. it just felt like we were back in school days when we will chat and chat non-stop over the phone for hours... but as we grow older... the conversation shortened and everything will end short and sweet... well this time is my problem... it used to be most of his problem whe he will call and chat... Its been so long since we last chat over the phone.. most of the time we will do it over MSN... which i hate most because he can't fully express his crude honesty through the words... even when his language is powerful... i will only feel the kinda impact and sent me crying till i sleep at night through phone conversation... ya.. that's the impact he gave me last night... i was feeling very lost recently... That is why i decided to chat with him... Just like QS, i don't have to explain much to describe much he will know what i wanna expresss... he can easily read me like a book... ok.. that goes without saying as we had known each other for for bout 14 years... he knew what i was thinking and deep down into my fault... where i refuse to let go... Oh my... that kinda words and feelings came from him through the phone caused my warm tears to flow down my cold cheeks... i can feel the trace of every drop of tear... He probably knew that i am getting emotional when i hang up because i hang up before a long palse.... he really missed my attitude... and he doesn't really like this emotional me.. Where's my attitude...?

(not so excited) saturday....

Last Sat was really a long tiring saturday... in order to prepare myself for the events on sat.. i decided to stay home early on friday, sleep early and wake up to have breakfast with both my sisters and niece... I had the events for the evening planned until dinner only.... he was the one who planned the part after dinner.... Ok.. it started on monday when da jie asked me if i wanna do some baking on sat... a thought suddenly flashed into my mind.. i wanna bake something for him... and i was excited untiil thursday when he was quite unhappy over a "waiting" incident.. ok.. nvm.. J told me that the events on sat will wipe off the unhappiness.. though i don't quite agree... With the excitement gone... my sat wasn't that excited on he baking anymore... but i still carried on... Though the cake wasn't wholly done by me... i was involve in it and da jie helped me chose the nice beautiful ones for him.. hahaha!!! yeah... I really hoped that it will give him a BIG BIG surprise!!! i insisted him to fetch me at my place so that i could show him my "surprise"... He didnt really "looked" surprised but he told me that he was surprised when i asked him bout it.... hehehe... than i insisted him to finish the cake before we drove off for dinner at Sentosa... ya.. and he gobbled down the cakes... i prepared 2 cakes for him and he ate it in 2 mouth.... but i was still happy that i am able to pop such surprise... there's nothing happier than to see him eat what you had prepared.. hahahaha!!!!

Surprise???

Hmm.. i am so tired recently.... didnt really have a very good sleep last weekend... and my weekdays are mostly busy also... But da jie just bomb me some excitement on my boring unlucky monday... hahhahaa!! i will be preparing a surprise... so happy.. had not been doing this kinda stupid, silly things for some times and here i am excited again because i will be doing it again... wahahahaha!!! so happy!!! thou tired.. buahahahaha!!!