Alone.....

Sometimes being alone is not a bad thing... it lightens up my mood and most of all allow me to do some thinking.. or rather not to think of any thing at all... I was alone this afternoon after lunch.. took a long bus ride from JP to Vivo... then catch a movie in GV Gold Class theatre.. yesh.. at this point of time some may be thinking that i am a freak to catch a movie on my own... For your information.. this is something S and myself had been talking about few years ago when we were still in Poly... We can shop alone.. swim alone... do anything alone... but we had not tried watching movie alone... well.. i made the first step to do something which i had not done for the past 22 years... but in a luxury way because i was watching a show in the Gold Class theatre... buahahaa!!! I was in the bus and i saw alont alot of students.. well.. i think people might be thinking that i am from poly... reason number 1.. when i went to pizza hut with some of the ex colleagues the waiter asked if we have a student around... for your information again.. they are all in office wear.. buahahahaha!!! ok.. in case you are curious at this point of time.. i am in Polo Tee and a plated mini skirt today... with a big big bag... juz like any other student who is about to go to school or back from school... buahaha!!!
i was walking around shopping... and i realise that i love.. to buy shoes recently.. i cant help buying shoes!! buahaha!!! think i will be scolded by my mum if i dun stop my shopping habit.. and one last thing to end this post... Wild Hogs is a nice movie... i was laughing so loudly in the theatre myself.. and was so afraid that people will start throwing their food at me... ;p

unfaithful freak....

I can't help thinking of him today.... Ya.. i am going out for a dinner and movie... hopefully nothing more than that... had been thinking alot bout him... All 明姐 fault... it makes me feels like an unfaithful freak... but there's nothing to feel bad about... i am still myself... so i have the freedom to go out with any one i like... buahaha!!! honestly... today i will be putting the guy on a test... had been rejecting this guy all the while... most prob will reject him if he ever ask that again... buahahaha!!! oh no!! what am i thinking???? i need a good rest.... Genting!!! or Aussie!!!!

A new chance

OK!!! I am single and very available and i dun wanna be left on the shelf!!!! buahahaha!! had been emphasizing this alot recently... and i guess maybe a matchmaking session will be following up very very soon... buahaha... Joan was asking if i can accept caucassians because... she is aiming to go Genting with some "we-know-who" guys... and if possible.... buahaha!! I can say that i am semi-prepared to carry on with the plan... Though i dun think any thing good will happen to me because nothing good had ever happened to me.... I was joking with Fuyuan if he got any guy friend who is just like me... because i kinda know the guys he hang out with... buahahha!! i mean.. know as in because they are my seniors in secondary school and i know their looks... and he actually took me for real i think! he asked me if i wants his good friend WW....!!!! buahahaha!! what a joke! Haiz.. but come to think of that.. if Joan never asked me how long i had been single... guess i will start to lose count on that also... She said... not counting the weekdays lovers... i had been single for about more than 1 year... she doesn't like me to consider my last 2 relationships as a true relationships because the 2 guys SUCKS right to the core!! hope you wont mind my language... but its a fact that nobody can deny.. i love them both equally and was at the same time hurt by them equally.... Sometimes i just cant help thinking that maybe its because my age is catching up... there are alot of things i cant bear to press the restart button... how can i ever be so stubborn??? i dun have the courage to restart alot of things again... i am no very young anymore...

It is just like how many more years can i spend on another relationship that will fail? I told Adrian that also... There are so many times i had been telling myself that i dun wanna be a 3rd party anymore.... That is why i gets very careful when i deal with attahced guys.... being twice is enough... i dun have the courage to mess up people and my own relationship... that is why.. when i see my friend now.. walking on the same old, familiar road which i had went through made me felt really sad... but at this point of time... i know that no matter how many negative comments the surrounding people gave.. nothing can change her mind.. unless she chose to leave.... I can say that i am so used to this kinda secretive relationship that i am abit tired of it... hmm... guess because of that i am suffering from weak heart now.. buahaha.... and not forgetting... introducing a real boyfriend to my family and friends had become a dream which i can be real proud of... guess my relative had not been seeing me bringing some guys to introduce to them after Parry ya... and that was 2 years ago.. just realised that after talking to my sister on some events which happened near the time i broke off with him... so ignoring my 1 year of unhealthy relationships with that 2 idiots... i had not really go on some real date for this long... hmm.. its ok la... this is a routine that will always happen to me... nothing really matters... because... i believe i wont do stupid things which involve any unhealthy relationships anymore... wahahaha!!!

crazy things

I think i had done something real crazy.... but i can't recall any... spent a damn bloody busy weekend with my sister and friends... went shopping with sister in the afternoon and had a drink with Adrian at night... suppose to meet S and YX to club at Chijmes... but these two pilots had learnt the art of A380... that's why i met up with Adrian and we had a drink and chatted until bout 3 am when he drove me home... i was damn tired i slept in his car.... buahhaa.. possibly a little drunk also.. Met up with one of the aeroplane queen today... buahaha and that's S!! we dressed up and shop at Marina Square (AGAIN!!)... was there on saturday and last friday.... got myself a bag from Guess.. and she also bought a cardigan from Esprit... we are the gals who like to spend... buahahha!! had a very good chat with her... think this is the first after she return from Aussie... and she was telling me how good it is to be able to enjoy singlehood... but i told her... i had enough! buahaha... its like that everytime.. guys in my life will all appear at the same time i and i will be a casanova for that period... and after that... it seems like they are all dead... and none will appear.. *fainted* and now is the situation.... ya... i don't deny that being single is definately free and easy.. take me for example.. i can go any where i like as long as i am free!! and when i feel lazy i just laze at home.. watch all the downloaded movies in my harddisk... i report to nobody... i think this is the reason why my friends like to put me first on their emergency call list!!! buahahah!!! i should be more or less so used to so many things.. previously R and SL are the kind who won't be there for me during weekends and watever holidays... R gotta fly around and SL gotta be at home.... that's why Joanna said... i am so independent from my bf... and i can stand it when they dont call or answer my calls.... So who is to be blamed??? my luck???

Depression

Haiz... its quite depressing sometimes especially recently.. when all the negative comments starts to come in from the surrounding people.. from those whoever concerns.... Had heard this kinda comments for months previously and now its coming back.. but from different people.. those who used to say it are too tired to repeat.. and its really getting depressing to listen it again from a different group of people... what should i do????????? Haiz.. Maybe its really time to change my directions and carry on with something else.... I keep reminding people that i still have the time... but its really getting tiring to hang on to something without any return.... there are a few times when i was at the verge of giving up but insisted on hanging on in conclusion... what goes around comes around... since i insisted the way it is.. it always comes back to the start point after several turns... what should i do????????? may be this is a sign... the bla bla sign to show my way out... i am seriously considering the vietnam invititaion.... hoping that a new start will fall upon me.... should i shut myself down???? maybe for a few weeks??? ok.. lets give that some considerations...i need a new start.. some new batteries.. need to re-charge myself... my promise to myself before i went Bintan.. its time to fulfil that... promises are not meant to be broken....Only i can help myself now....

Photos

Here's some photots to share for my birthday and Bintan trip.... hehe...

Bye Tanah Merah!!! Welcome to our room!!

Unforgettable Bintan trip

Buahahahaha!! went to Bintan for a "wild" birthday get away last weeekend... It was definately and unfrogettable (even when i had forgotten what i had done)... wahahaha!! Guess it was so great that the 2 great friends who went with me definately enjoyed it so much by all my entertainments... I was so excited even before i reach Bintan.. i was yaking non stopp from S'pore to Bintan... pestered them to play banana boat.. and the three if us shouted like hell.. and snorkling which was so memorable.. it was a life and death experience on our way to the place where we snorkle... the boat is travelling like a roller coaster and we were shouting like HELL!!!! But the view after the hell ride was so nice and i was under the sea saying.. "fishy fishy"... buahahaah!! and at night.. we went for some drinks after dinner.. i really wonder is it because the KTV had too little crowd that the long island tea eventually turns out to be hard liquor tea... fainted.... after that we went to Silk for some clubing entertainment... had long island tea again.. i was damn high at that point of time when i was given another drink that killed me for the night... "waterfall".. shit! the cough syrup.... buahahaa... i remembered i was being walked back into the room by some people.. ( cant remember that much).. and i dun remember what happened... basically my 2 poor great friends gotta clear all my "shit" (they know what i mean) and rest for the day... the drink this time was really bad that i had gastric flu after the hangover.. i m still suffering from that now...