Silly darling

I came across 2nd sis blog that day and found this poem that suits me really alot.. I wrote it down instantly intending to share with dear.. The poem goes like this :

"It's fate which brings us together
It's fate which makes us friends
Three hundred and sixty-five days
Eight thousands seven hundred and sixty hours
Five hundred twenty-five thousands six hundred minutes
Three hundred fifteen hundreds thrity-six thousands seconds
Every day; every hour
Every minutes; every second
I am yours forever"

It's a direct reply to dear's keep me forever.. Hahahaha... let me be in this sweet mood for a second... I was hugging him and directly saying into his ears when i was reading to him.. Abit embarrassing to read the last sentence.. Really wonder how he felt when he heard the last sentence.. But he kissed me after i finished the whole thing... Argh.... felt so sweet.... I am really very scared to fall in love again.. but i can't seem to control myself again this time...

He had been quite tired recently.. and all i can do is to make him herbal tea and get him something that relief his tireness.. I like it when he everytime called me silly.. And this time.. he called me "silly darling"...

Pride and Egoism

Haiz... Its only one week after the celebration and something happened between me and dear.. Not that it affects us alot.. But i suddenly realised something.. Even when he said he wanna keep me forever.. Even when he said if one day i wanna leave him he can't stop me.. but if its he vise versa.. I can't stop him also.. I told him that and he said as long as we knew that we were happy with each other's company that was enough.. Ya.. The best part of love is always the memories... I almost cried when i heard this.. Felt abit disappointed though.. Since he was busy i did not wanna add on to his stress... Its the second time i had the crying feeling... This time is when i saw tireness in his eyes.. He even tried to smile when i said he was tired.. I told him i felt so useless when i can't seem to help him.. Well that's his work.. I cant help him.. As long as i dun bother him too much that's enough.. Really showing all my silliness in front of him..

Other than this.. Something happened to me and qy... I just duno why i can't seem to put down my pride and egoism... Wanna talk things out.. But i cant seem to cross my barrel.. I only replied her the same thing she gave me on friday.. "I got no mood to talk today".. Only saw her message 5 plus (sent at 3 plus) coz was cooking and i never bring my phone along.. Why am i always make worse? If i can put down my pride an egoism...

Pre-Birthday Celebration!!!

Went to the Night Safari yesterday night!!!! Actually it had meant to be a surprise... but i actually guessed that... Erm... Well.. I can guess quite near to his 'surprises' .... But I was really very very touched and happy with the time and effort he spent with me... Thanks dear... It was quite crowded with tourist yesterday... Guess its the holiday season in Japan... Coz quite alot of Japanese students... It's such a nice experience..We got a ticket with the tram ride but instead of looking around, we went for the show first... Talking bout the show... I had chosen a stupid place whereby i got real close to this animal walking down the rope just right above me... After the show we went for the tram ride... I was actually quite scared that dear will get too close to the animals... I just kept holding on to both his hands... And in the end, he laughed at my stupidness.. Well i admit that i am timid.. Coz when we were looking at the stripped hyennas, i pulled him away when the hyenna spotted us... And in the end... He kept laughing at me... Well, we get out of the Night Safari at 10+ and we were both famished... ya.. forgot to mention that he got me a giraffe soft toy.. Coz i fell in love with the soft toy the moment i saw it and instantly we named it "da tou (big head)... Share some photos here..
Extreme left is the peacock spotted at the carpark before we went into the night Safari...
Beside is the giraffe that dear had bought for me... together with the ticket and zoo map..

Friday!!!

I cant wait till friday.. I really cant wait till friday... My adredaline is rising... It hit the top... Cant wait anymore... You sounded so mysterious... Really wonder what kinda surprise you had up to your sleeves.. By the way.. Daddy fell down and had a wound on his head.. 7 stitches.. Thats considered serious... Real worried... Friday faster come.. I cant wait any more....!!!!!!

Love = Risk

Went church with Joanna today.. I used to think church is a boring place.. It is abit bored during their prayers coz i dun pray... i am not a christian.. But in all.. Its still ok.. not as bad as what i had imagined.. But that doesnt mean that i will be a believer also... just went there coz there's a drama today... Quite touching... And it teaches us that love involve taking risks.. Ya.. I agree.. It's a risk to whether the person will accept you or not.. Teach you how to love a person no matter who he/she is or is with... Think its the same to all religions.. They always lead you to the "right" path... Made you shaped as a better person.. That's why to me is i dun quite believe in any religious thingy except for their teachings.. Follow where your heart tells you to and differenciate the devils from there... Also... I had always believe that you love the person of who the person is and not who the person is with... If my friend is a third party.. flirt... or someone who hangs out with the "wrong" company.. i will still love my friend.. Coz i love my friend for who he/she is and not who he/she is with.... Think i can share with dear.. feel like messaging him and tell him that i love him.. but... erm.. better not.. He will get carried away...

Present or Celebration?

Damn it... Had not been feeling very well this few days... Gastric acting up again... Not feeling very well but can't seem to let my work down... have to depend on chinese medicine to survive... Met up with dear just now for some coffee.. he had been asking me where do i wanna go for my birthday these few days... And I had been telling him how unromantic he was when he did that. Cause he is suppose to give me a surprise. Never mind.. I had always knew that he was not the romantic type of guy long ago... just keep quiet only... Hahaha!!! Think i can't think of a place until he asked me to chose between present or celebration.. For any normal girls they would wanted both (which is what is in my mind also). For those practical one they will chose present. But surprisingly, I chose celebration over present... The reason is.. i wanna spend more time with him.. I told him that if i wanted a present i would want a dog... He knew that he had to get me a young new doggy (coz i am afraid of big old one).. After some consideration.. Unless he is gonna sponsor the doggy's monthly expenses.. Otherwise i think i have to kill and it it when my bank is totally dried out.. Hehehe... Actually i was planning to get a dog at a later date.. After both of us cleared our debts... I will sure ask him to sposor half or 3/4 of the cost of the dog.. Hahaha!!!

Disappointed

Went for my first lesson yesterday!!! Finally wnt to school.. Hahaa.. Disappointed class got no handsome guys to see.. but was quite coincident taht there was actually this guy who is the first batch of my diploma..So is my senior... Disappointed cause dear really never give me a surprise turn up in front of my school waiting to fetch me home.. Now i realise that what he said he really do it.. And he said other day... Haiz... Never mind.. I know he had been busy enough... Fell down yesterday while walking towards bugis busstop.. So embarassing.. Can i not be so clumsy everytime? Haiz... Going to school tomorrow again... Wonder when will dear come and pick me up after my school? best if he brought along a bread or what for my dinner (or supper)... Hehehe.. I shall dream on i know...