Turn back time

I came upon this just now and don't really quite remember that i had actually written such kinda strong, positive thingy in my blog.

"Something came across my mind n i decided 2 blog about it.. i discovered that there are quite a number of people who said that they dun wanna fall in love again after being hurt badly by an ill fated relationship... First question i asked myself is.. Why are people shutting themself out from something which who knows they might enjoy in future??? Well its not that i can accept someone else now... Juz that i wont stop myself from falling in love again.... I know its painful and hard to build up the trust.. But that doesnt mean that we have to shut ourselves up after being hurt...dats ridiculous... I admit that i cant fall in love now coz i had not got over the feelings i had for S.. and at the same time i m giving K a chance.. I am also giving myself a chance...Another thing i wanna blog today is regarding my saturday.. Oh my gosh! he gave me a bouquet of flowers! Its the second time i receive flowers and finally got the right bouquet... but not from the right person.... Though the things he had done that particular day can be quite touching for a gal to judge a guy.. But... the normal hard hearted me juz dun feel anything.."

WOW! ya.. judging from the above it was like 2 years ago? Or maybe near 2 years ago? Ok.. I don't quite remember when i had written that kinda crap.

There were some thoughts that intruded into my mind: maybe that's god's hint that my next guy was a K! When i wrote that, my relationship with SL had ended bout 1 month or maybe more or less than that. The K after me at that time was actually Kelvin. That's the first K after SL but the chemistry wasn't there for the 2 of us because i particularly detest people of certain horoscope. Then, the next K appears - actually he appeared earlier but not earlier than Kelvin. We met as colleague then! And (fortunately) since things worked out for the 2 of us, we are now a couple and are happily in love! So thats the positive attitude i believe everyone should have to protect themselves. What do you think of my philosophy? Buahahhaa!

I have few friends who doesn't really believe in "love" after they had a hard split with the previous relationship and doesn't look forward to any other new one when chances come. Well, i gotta admit that it wasn't really easy to start a new relatonship and learn to love a new person. The math between me and dear wasn't that easy also. We started our relationship 1 1/2 year after we acquainted. He may not be the best looking guy but he is definately a nerve wrecking one. Buahhahaa!! Yah.. certain close friend of mine were quite shocked when i revealed this Mister and they probably think that he was so fortunate to have a young and pretty girlfriend. *smilez* On contrary, i think i was the fortunate girl who had gotten a sweet and patient guy to handle my ever-short-impatient temper. Its like the 2 faces of a coin, it depends on which side you are looking at.

Dear may not be a sensitive man when it comes to communication and action but he is definately someone with lotsa patience. With a girlfriend 7 years younger than him, his maturity simply neutralized my childishness. There were certain adventurous path when i chickened out upon stepping our foot on, he had held my hands tight and "dragged" me through. And when we were faced with an adventure which he was afraid of and i am interested to step foot on, he will simply wait for me to finish up with my business and return. Hehe.. Well, he proved to me that we can walk through tough roads together and he will be there for me after i tumbled.

The photo below was taken during my MC period when he came to look for me after work. He was compiling some information or doing his project when the very bored me attacked his peace! I placed Da Tou (the giraffee) on his lappy and the result looks so good! It seems lile he was talking to Da Tou. He was actually telling me to remove the toy because the big head was kinda irritating.



Did i mention that i believe the affinity between us was kinda deep? Buahaha!! Well, this is really one thing which i am really proud of and a secret which only the 2 of us know. This happened way before we started the relationship and was when we were frequently seeing each other. And this of course is still valid now. Before we officially started our relationship, there were times when he just came into my mind and the next thing that happened was either his sms or his MSN message. And now, whenever i checked my phone or changed my mind on sms-ing or call him, he will sms or call me 30 seconds after i let go of my phone! If this happened once or twice, i will simply name it as coincidences. BUT this happened almost everyday! Sometimes, when thoughts of asking him out for dinner or movie came across my mind, his action will come. It was just like he was reading my thoughts!

Well, CL is a guy who will read me like a book and most of the time i can just keep quite and his therapethic words will be injected into my brain. Dear on the other hand will do things when i was thinking about it. Am i that easy?? Ok.. it takes a 14 year friendship to be at that kinda stage. Actually QS and Joanna were also other friends with therapethic words and i am really happy that the friends surrounding me possessed such awesome powers! Buahahhaa!! Probably they know me too well. This time, i can't say that i wont surrender to fate even when i don't really believe in it.

TGIF!!

Finally its friday!!! And guess what. I am gonna meet my best friend for dinner!! Wow! Had not met him for long. Think it was about one year ago or maybe lesser. Erm.. I can still remember that it was after transformer, i briefly met him for a chat along Orchard and that's last i met him. We will be going for BUFFET today!!!! He is still as sweet as ever. I gave him a call this morning to ask where should we be going for dinner and we really discussed. So we moved from Clementi to Jurong East and lastly he asked what about Jurong West which is damn near his house can.. But i rejected it because its rather far for me to go home. Woa!!! can't wait to see him!! This is a friend nobody can miss out. Hmm... He is the first man my dad approved of. Remember i used to quote in my blog on how i quarrelled with my dad during my 21st Birthday because he reached the place earlier than me? yesh! Thats the man i was referring to! And i think other than Joanna, he is the other friend i have when i can just inform my parents who i will be out with using their name.

Mummy and Daddy aren't the type of parents who will remember their kids friends name. They probably will remember the face but not the name. Oh! I am so damn excited now!! Can't wait for the day to end....

Lastly, i finally figured out a way to take photo and i think i look cute in it. Buahahhaha!!! Now braces don't look that ugly anymore. It is kinda young and hip!

Tired~

REMOVE THE BIG STONE FROM MY HEAD!!! Argh.. my head felt heavy and I wanna sleep. Can somebody help me work for the rest of this week and allow me to have enough rest? It seems like no matter how much rest i took was never enough for me. Oh~ so tired.

I am a Grey's Anatomy fan now!! Went home earlier yesterday to watch it and....... Patrick Dempsey is so handsome can!!! Oh~ did i forget to mention that he is my new idol?? Yesh! He is my new love and this adds on to Kim Jae Won and Andy Lau. I am so into him now!!

Yes??

It was a sudden sms when dear asked me when's my next dental appointment. Part of me was worried that he will be away during then and i will have no driver to fetch me to and fro. Buahahaa!! Who knows the real reason behind everything was because he wanted to clear his leave. He simply had too many days to clear! Hmm... If that is the case, can we go away for a moment to release all the stress?

BORED!!

I am extremely bored!!!!!!!!!!! Dying from boredom!! Give me some work to do..

Since i am bloggong, maybe i should share the ugly photo of my braces. Also, my newly sponsored-by-dear specs!! Ya, did i mentioned i had a new hair style? Dear said i looked like straw mushy with this new look.

Eh.... ugly pic of my braces. Had made the top lavender and bottom navy blue..

The new sponsored-by-dear specs. *smilez* He deserve a lotza love for spoiling me this far... Its actually the most expensive present he had ever bought so far. Since my birthday pressie was split into 2 occassions this was the most expensive so far. I hope for a better luck next time then maybe i will get a bag. *grinz* Hmm... brand of this specs? Shall not name it, don't wanna be a showoff. Its actually not the frame that made this so pricey but was the lenses.

Short-tempered

The weather had been extremely HOT recently and that made me wonder if it affects my temper. The tolerance level to alot of things had shrink and its quite frustrating because I am being unreasonable most of the time. First, i shouted at mummy and quarrelled with her over housework on Saturday. Then, i got angry with dear for chasing me away until his friend's wedding dinner was ready to start.

Dear was suppose to fetch me at 1400hr on Saturday after the morning wedding event but it turns out that he can go home straight from the bride house. So with the turn of event, i ended up doing housework since i had the extra time. And the extravagant self would usually maximize the amount of time (most of the time money), so i went ahead for my rebonding. Buahaha!! Had been "craving" for rebonding for very very LONG!! The whole session ended at 1700hr and dear agreed to fetch me to the hotel- I rejected the offer previously because i don't wanna reach to early and i thought my hair would take a longer time to finish.

And here'e the exciting part of the day. We reached Hilton at 1815hr and dear was late. He was teh brother and suppose to help out with some stuff. So he valet parked his car and went up the ballroom. When we reached, he joined his friend and guess what... he actually said,

"You go wonder wonder" and shoved me off. T

he first feel that came into me was that i was such a rubbish and he can dispose me just like that??!! So since he was so insensitive, i ought to remind him that i was offended! So after all the remindings and spending on Lleroy and Braydon's stuff, i was tamed and dear asked me to join him back at Hilton. The reluctant me showed up with very very lack face which sent both of us to talk out the problem before i smile and acted like nothing happened. I was really angry with the way he put it through even when he want me to stay away for a moment.

79 more days!!

79 more days to Aussie!!! So damn excited!! Buahahahaha!! Had been quite tired with work recently and was turning a little aggressive. Seriously anxious to get the "sponsored by dear" new specs next week. He is really a Elvis Presley i should say- "mao wang" in chinese. After he paid for the specs, he told me that my specs was much more expensive than his. Anyway, i still wanna thank him for sponsoring his blind girlfriend with that new pair of specs. What will he get in return?? Hmm.... guess shall keep this private. Buahahaha!!

Lazy~

Ok... I am really damn bloody lazy to update any single form of my life during long weekends and don't think my blog will be so popular for people to even glance at it. What had i done? Probably slept off my Monday blue yesterday and made a new pair of specs. Buahahaha!! I was on half day last Friday because of my dental appointment. Finally! After the long wait! My braces was fully "installed" into my mouth. Found it real awkward to smile and i decided not to smile any more until my teeth is straight enough. Dear had been quite encouraging since i put on braces and the man who seldom take photos encouraged me to take photos!! Woaw! That's so..... unbelievable? Buaahahaha!!



Dear sent me home after my dental appointment and went for his "supposed dinner appointment". What does this mean? Ok... He was suppose to meet up with the brothers and sisters involved in his friend's wedding coming this Saturday but was adjourned to night out as the rest were busy working.



Met up with Bear on Saturday. This bro is really good! Smsed me last last Sat and asked me out when he returned from Taiwan but i was too tired so i suggested last week instead. Seriously wondered if dear felt lost without me.. Buahahha!! Since the last arguement on personal time, i purposely made my Saturday busy and did not intend to meeet him at all. In the end, i still met dear for dinner.... :( Bear had to leave for BBQ at his friend's place and dear asked for dinner..

At least after my boring Friday and Saturday, my Sunday was a little exciting. I went to Kukup with dear and his friends for sunset and seafood. Couldn't enjoy most of the food because of my teeth and i keep biting my cheeks. Damn... By the time we reached JB, it was about 2330hr and i was so damn tired. We went for massage and then SUPPER (which i also couldnt eat much). The last 2 things to do were to pump petrol and wash car and finally HOME!! When you talk about finally, people will usually think that it will be fast but instead, it was very very long!! The causeway was so packed! We made our way out at 0145hr and we reached home at 0400hr. OMG! Ya.. probably every one will be thinking that since monday is a holiday, it will not be so pack during midnight and everybody went home at the same time. *fainted* And this explains why i slept throughout my monday.

Sugar~

This week probably had a rocky start when things wasn't right since Sunday night and we had a quarrel over time issue. It was really quite hurting to hear this coming out from dear's mouth and it sent us to have icy conversation on Monday. The main problem was my reluctance to talk to him from the aftermath of the quarrel. J had this problem with her previous bf as well, when her ex required more "personal time" from her, though the situation was a little different. Dear was telling me that he didn't see any need to meet up everyday, even when he didn't reject my request to date. The most hurting sentence which he had ever mentioned was "his boy friend was getting all the crap time because we are meeting too frequently."I was really angry at this and refuse to talk to him any further. Before i slept, i did sent him an sms saying, "wasn't meeting your boyfriend at crap time the same as meeting him everday?"

Ok.. Since he requested more personal time to do all his stuff, i didn't really plan to meet him at all this week until he asked if there was any thing he can do to make me less unhappy and initiated some nice and sweet conversation. I admit that i was quite petty because i was still angry with him yesterday. The anger subsided when the name tag (which we both owned) dropped and i lost it some where. He eventually volunteered to get me one the next time we see it while shopping and also suggested a movie yesterday. There were some facts involved that i didn't disturb him much because my work was really getting busier. Well, he fetched me from office yesterday and we went to Marina Sq for dinner and movie.

I was complaining to him that i missed eating meat especially lambs and he allowed me to deicde dinner since i could not eat much especially hard stuff. Therefore, we ended up in Sakae Sushi and i finally realised that i can still eat Udon!! He ordered most of the food i wanted to eat and made me eat since i was the hungry one. In fact, he did not order any main course because he knew i won't eat much from my agony now. Well, he gotta finish up all the meat because i can't eat any hard meat and the rest of the Udon. Another sugar tht happened yesterday was the conversation we had while having our dinner, when i was telling him about the weddng dinner of my friend and i wasn't sure if i will get invited.

M: Any way, i don't know if i will wanna go to the wedding if i was invited. I look so ugly now.
D: No.. you are not.

Sweet isn't it? I seriously think braces will diminish one's ego or pride with regards to the look. I really hate my look now because of my braces. Some things which I will be afraid of doing was to open my mouth to talk or laugh. Now people will really not see me laugh as loud in the cinema any more. Less noise pollution from my talkative nature.... T_T

Another sugar that was added before the conversation above was dear's surprise for me yesterday. It wasn't an expensive one but at least he did something to be supportive on what i am going through now. My mouth wash was running out and i need to get a new one. So since i did not know that i will take dear's vehicle home after work, i only managed to get my toothbrushes and toothpaste. When i board dear's car yesterday evening, he actually placed the mouth wash on my seat and surprise me with it!! Why was it a surprise?! Ok.. previously i did requested him to sponsor the mouth wash because i really have to buy alot of things due to my braces and mouth wash was one of the expensive stuff. I really heart his effort to break our ice from the quarrel and being so supportive during my braces treatment.

Hungry~

I am hungry! Couldn't consume enough food to keep my energy level high.. I wana eat meat!! i want lambs! *ROAR* I am a T-Rex and i want MEAT!!!!!!!

Belated Mummy's day

Ok.. I was too lazy to blog during weekends (as usual) so i am now late to wish all mummies happy mummy's day. Well, i have 3 mummies at home now; my one and only dedicated mummy who always doesn't cook what i can eat and the 2 milking cows elder sisters who had started their families and are now mummies of the noisy lil ones at home. I was shopping and wanted to get the Marketing Director a LeSportsac bag for her Marketing use. It was my surprise that the MD had already changed her Marketing bag. Argh.... what a failure i am to have the idea so late. Anyway, I couldn't eat much of what mummy had cooked yesterday evening. Chewing had became a very difficult task even when my braces was not tightened. The seperators which the Ortho had inserted between my teeth made my chewing quite uneasy as every lil action will cause pain. It made me feels like my teeth were dropping and they were fragile. Kept telling myself that after all the endurance, i will be a SUPER pretty girl. So bear with this.... bear with this... *chanting goes on*

Yesterday was another too free night which we ended up not really quarrelling but was a lil heated on the topic. Will not talk about this here because there were too many private things involved. He thinks that i always think i was right about everything; well, i couldn't disagree with him as i do think i am always right. BUT THERE ARE ALSO TIMES WHEN I THINK I WAS AT FAULT and i do apologize. I decided not to be too petty and childish and thus sent him a message at Facebook. Guess what? He did not see the message.. Funny huh... Well.. well... i should start to date more people now.. let me schedule my timetable from this weekend...

Braces tomorrow!!!

Ok.. Excitement ended after long wait again.. Super sianz. Tomorrow is definately a very new day for me after braces; had been illusionizing the kinda pain and troubles which i will be going through for 3 years. BUT i had finished booking everything for my Aussie trip!!!!!!! SHIOK!!! Buahahaha!! Now i am so looking forward to the trip which means my excitement will die soon as well. Buahahha!!!

Had been so busy lately in work. Ok.. What i had no been announcing in the blog was i actually went for an interview at Yuan da ge's company. Really gotta thank him and i was actually shortlisted for that position but with a $300 pay cut. Though the pay $7 per hour for OT during normal days which include Saturdays and $8 per hour for Sunday and PH. This is really not very attractive. A pay cut will never be in my list of choice even when the bonus payout is HUGE for the company. Dear don't think its worth it to work so much and get so little return. Judging by the amount of basic they had offered, the bonus won't be much as well. Some how, i have a feeling was partly because dear doesn't want me to be too busy cause he will be bored? That's my thinking because when i said that i won't have so much free time which i will abuse it by disturbing him, he still shake his head and discourage me to take up the offer. Gotta add on to the previous sentence, dear shook his head after thinking about my free time for 5 mins.*happy!* So i don't think any one need to think and will know that i had rejected the offer. thanks Yuan dage!!

Disappointment...

SO DISAPPOINTED!!! There was a conference at Sydney from 9th to 14th August which means... This had caused my favourite hotels to be FULLY booked!!! *whine* So angry + sad + disappointed. Dear was quite disappointed as well, after all, he was the one who chose the hotel. SO SAD!!!!!!!

Ok.. i shall upload the photo of me and my orangey carrot when i am not lazy to do it.. Buahahaha!!

tick-tock

Think its a time bomb that was placed between the both of us and it will definately goes off whenever this subject was brought up. We were happily drinking our drinks after 2 hours of shoppping. Well, you know, old man couldn't walk too long. So we had a long chat and everything started normal after i brought up the same topic. Here it goes:



Me: why are you so close to your boyfriend?
Dear: because we are both good people (and he carried on n agging at their good thing).
Me: Don't think so..
Dear: Cause he is my 10 year old friend
Me: but you don't see me pulling my 14 year old friend around right?!

And this continued with the deadly silent for the next 1.5 hours. He said that i was the one jealous of his boyfriend and I was the one who showed him my black face. Je just won't admit that he is sensitive to this subject and whenever we brought it up he will be unhappy. At least things did get better on Sunday. I had to go Rebecca's place and dear sent me home to get my ez-link card and then to Bec house.

It was so fun at Bec house!!! We were watching Jay Chou's concert and when's the high part??? Its when Fei Yu Qing and Jay Chou sang Qian Li Zhi Wai!! WHY?! Buaahhahahaha!! This is the reason... Fei Yu Qing was trying to act young!! OMG!! you really gotta watch it in order to undersstand what i am trying to say here. He was trying to show the hip hop hand sign and swing to the music. Seriously don't understand why he did that but he really sent all of us laughing so LOUD!!!! Buahahahaha!!! I still love to hang out with the girls.. Ya.. Geting my braces done this Saturday. Nobody will be going to the dentist with me. Mummy and sisters are busy with the children and my heartless dear is going for a paintball session with his boyfriend's colleague. He wonder what time they will end and NOBODY will go with me and i am so SCARED!!!! ARGH!!! Maybe its time to find a new boyfriend.. Ok.. in order not to be selfish, i had played paintball before and that's damn bloody fun. So i think he should enjoy what he want to but the wrong date was chosen. How i wish he is sensitive enough to say that since its my first braces appointment and i will be carrying this pain for THREE bloody years he will go with me instead of the game. *whine*

3 more months to Aussie!!!!

Ok..i really had to get exciting about this!! I was bugging dear recentl on the drop of domestic flight tickets in Australia and forced him to compromise my excitement which means, he had to surrender his credit card for the domestic flight tickets booking. Buahahahahahhaah!!!

Ok.. should i start from Wednesday? Ok.. i should start from Wed then. Buahahaha!! No choice allowed.. Dinos are always unreasonable! Was suffering from a very very bad cramp on Tuesday night after the gathering with my ex-colleagues and couldn't even walk home. So in the end, i did not turn up for work on Wed. Buahahahha!! Gotta see doc that morning because i was so painful the night before i vomitted as well. I was still suffering from the the pain that morning. Think the pain was too much the previous night, i was still suffering from the pain the next day. The clever doctor says, that could be a combination of menstral cramp and my infection (which had turned real bad after few days delay to doc). T_T I was so painful that night, i told dear that if giving birth is 10 times this pain, i will not have any baby at all! Buahahha!! Of course, when i woke up the next morning, i seriously wonder if i was too painful i fainted or i was simply too tired from the pain, because my lights were still switched on when i woke up that morning. So after gettig better and had my things done that morning, i went to meet the GE folks for lunch!! Really missed them alot and too bad Carrot could not make it that day. NVM... i will be having dinner with her later!!!

Ok... so after my sufferings, i simply rested half the day yesterday and that's how i wasted my holiday. Boring.... Salmon and jie jie came home yesterday afternoon!! *dance around* He was so cute ok.... sleeping like a log even when everyone was so noisy.. Buahahahahha!! Lleroy came later and joined the group but i had to get out for free massage with dear soon after he arrived. Ya.. its a free massage at True Spa and we jolly well knew the intention of that FREE thingy!! My clever Finance Manager (FM a.k.a. dear) asked me there to reject them because he gave me a FREE massage. WTH! The package they gave us was quite tempting though but it cost SGD$7200 to sign a package per couple is just simply too expensive for the both of us!! Cumon, SGD$7200 divided by 2 = SGD$3600 per pax. And that means, i can get 2 bags from Coach, 1 bag and 1 wallet from LV or just 1 bag from both LV and Gucci and Burberry. We can even tour Europe with the money lor. That (stupid) masseuse who served me really massage my veins. It felt quite good for a moment but torturous the next as she LITERALLY sat on me! She used her knees to massage my back and it felt real good on the lower back but i became breathless when she pressed her knees against my mid back. My lungs and rips simply felt like bursting because she was TOO HEAVY!! Cumon, i am not a very small sized woman but i am still considered boney ok! When it came to my neck, i seriously felt as if she was strangling me and she was LITERALLY (again) plucking my veins can! Bloody pain lor.. Now my left shoulder is painful, but my lower back pain was cured. She really did very well on my lower back but not my shoulder coz that's where all my bones are! Oh... did i mentioned that place have OSIM chair?? iDesire.. thats really damn bloody shiok! I kept thinking, if i have a house in future, i will definately buy this chair. It cures my back and neck!

So after dinner, we went to hunt for dear's jacket which i had promised. Adidas actually came out with a windbreaker for Germany this year. *cry* So in order to fulfill the couple gift for anniversary, i went a head with the purchasing of the windbreaker for him. We can still wear that couply jacket even when its of different material. The design is still the same!!! *convincing my disappointment* After that we get the loot, we went back to my place and that's when i forced dear to submit his credit card for the air tickets booking!! Buhahahaaahhaha!!! Hmm.. I can say i have a very cute dearie since he came out with really lotza funny ideas and stuff. ;p