Approaching CNY

No festive mood this year... don't ask me why. Probably that's because of my flu. Was down with flu these few days and is still under medication. I had took one day MC from work after not being able to hold for 2 days at work. Partly i don't wanna be the one spreading the virus to the rest of my colleagues. They had been quite afraid of me on both Monday and Tuesday because i was coughing and sneezing non stop.

After resting the whole afternoon (i woke up at 7.30am yesterday to work the report as one of my colleague is on leave i can't leave the other colleague to die with my absence), i went out for dinner with dear in the evening for dinner. Popped a pill and drank the cough syrup before i went out yesterday. In the end i felt quite stone from the effect of my medicine. Was quite easily irritated because i wasn't feeling too well yesterday, and certain simple small things can make me angry. We were suppose to go for movie but i was quite shocked to see that Vivo only have movies until 6 and the rest of the time were not scheduled for any movies. In the end, so it turns out to be a premier screen of thr Fann Wong and Lee Guo Huang new show. I thought that its the screening of CJ7 and wanted to stay till i see Stephen Chow (i am not his fan) but walked away upon seeing the exact show screened.

Not much to say also, sales every where and i thought of getting a jacket for the Aussie trip this Aug because its some sales on thick jackets as winter is ending. Haiz.. but it ended up too big for me. the sizes left are all 14 and 16. Normally size 12 is already big for me because i wear from 8 to 10 depending on the cutting. So gotta walk out of River Island in disappointment. Other than that, we had dinner at the Kim Gary Cafe (my favourite and he know it!) as suggested by dear. Ate my usual curry mix grilled which i was not suppose to be eating because i was sick but cant resist it. The rest of the food will turn out tasteless and i seriously need to bost my appetite with spicy food. Dear tried to make me say what exotic food i will bring him to after i asked him to chose Barnacles (we went there last year) or "something new". I am not going to tell you where i will be bringing him in case there's a leak of secrecy until his birthday. Buahaha! Since Saturday is approaching.... lets wait till i post it after i celebrate it with him!

SICK AGAIN~

Haiz.. had been sick 4 times in 2 months.. How bad can that be? Its very very bad... Had been sneezing the whole morning and craving for pineapple tarts and popiah.. Having dizzy spells but i don't think i am having fever. In office now because this week one of my colleague is on leave and i cant leave the other colleague to die. Damn bloody sick now.

Meaningful Sunday

Being meaningful doesn't mean it won't hurt me.. I suffered from this as well.. Buahhaha!! As my family knows, i had been involved in some volunteery work recently.Gotta thank J for this as she was the one who asked me along. After my Sec sch days i had always wanted to do something charitable and volunteering but could not find a chance to do it or rather i don't know how to start it. This is something that was organized by her client and the first time we did that was last year's Deepavali. The one we did the other time is like a 1 Hr job of 100packs of Bee Hoon and Congee. This time, its a 300 sets (total of 900packs) of food and neccessities to 4 places. the 300 sets are for 3 different HDB areas while the 1 final destination for yesterday was the home for the disabled. It was really physically tiring as we have to carry so many bags which each set is about 8 to 10Kg. I was lucky to have the trolley, J who suffered under the manual labor was having aches all over her body.

I remembered the wrong time that's why reached F house earlier than anyone. But at least i did help by being early. Wow.. the morning was stressed. Helped out checking the packs which was packed the day before by the rest and put in the things that were missing from it. Perspired till my whole shirt turns WET (how disgusting).. after that we transferred the things from F house to the ground floor to have the things loaded in the vehicles. We have 2 lorries, 2 Vans and bout 6-7 cars and all FULLY LOADED (non of the car can see from their rear view mirror)! one of the van was over loaded till the tired went flat. It was really very very tiring physically but emotionally satisfied. Yah... ALL of us did not had breakfast and we started moving the HEAVY loads until bout 1245hr. I was lucky to reach the 2nd destination early and ate with V before the rest came. But they had lunch before we started to give things at the 2nd destination.

When i reached dear's place yesterday(or even before i reach), i told him i wana bathe badly. After i bathe, i insisted him to help me massage my back and luckily he helped me yesterday night as well. That's so sweet of him (once in a while only). My back don't hurt today and i can walk. BUT..... As i had not been feeling well the whole weekend, now i am painful at my legs, butt, stomach, shoulder (can't even lift my right hand) and throat. AND i am coughing non stop, and suffered from blocked nose. I need to take MC but i am scared to take it because this week is a rather stressful week. I WANA GO HOME!!

Disappointed~

Sometimes, a simple "why?" can create so much emotions. a phase "don't feel like" can hurt, disappoint. Be it unintentional or what, it still can't hide disappointment. Not expecting any answer to it, sometimes just feel like listening to lies. If that is too much concern, if that is not what i expected.. probably i am asking too much, you aren't thinking about this or neither had it crossed your mind. It makes me wonder what am i to you. Yes, you are good and is good to me. Try to make me happy when i am not and was even patient to me. Patience just moved out from me.. What is future in this sense? Maybe am thinking too much.

Fantasy....

So tired today.. Reached home slightly after 12 this morning because dear and i went for a movie yesterday night. We were out and talking and i asked him about our trip on August. I got so excited at the thought of it! And the excitement was carried forward today! buahahaha!!! We were suppose to go during May after his exam. But i changed my mind and made it in Aug during our anniversary instead. Two reasons for that.. one.. I need more time to save and two.. it will be winter!! buahahaha!! I need a different climate from SG.. Its so tiring to spend 365 days in summer. He doesn't sound enthu enough to Gold Coast but suggested Sydney after i gave another 2 suggestions of Perth and Melbourne.

I had also suggest to take the night flight on friday if possible and by the time we reach will be saturday morning which won't waste too much of our time since there is a time difference of 3 hours. Hopefully we are able to make it to 2 places both Gold Coast and Sydney. He doesn't wana play the rides. Probably too old to play the roller coasters?? Haiz my grandfather is also old and he took one indoor roller coaster ride with us at Thailand (i didn't know that its roller coaster ride, thought it was some haunted house ride). But i wanna go Movie world!! I wana see Tweety Bird.. and the remark i get from him was "What's so nice about a bird which can't fly?" @_@ Hmm.. but he agreed to take a look at the tour agencies together. Maybe have to book it early because he said that the filght i wanna take is usually very crowded.

Ok.. Let me be a movie critic for a while. Went to watch The Mist yesterday. Seriously feel like slapping the yahoo critic left right center. What is wrong with the person man! This show is damn bloody boring (humorous at times). It is too lengthy in front and at the middle. Too nagged when they drive around in the mist especially when the GIGANTIC alien walk past them and their decision to die when they run out of petrol. Honestly speaking, luckily the tickets are $6 after discount yesterday. Otherwise i would have slap myself left right center for watching this stupid movie on weekends.

Strange dream...

Hmm.. I dreamt of him last night. It had been like so long since i last dreamt of him. Why do i still dream of him???!!! I should not be thinking of him or even dream of him. Ok.. i get paranoid when i dream of him. Wanna get him out of my mind since i can't get him out of my life. It always shows a sign when i dream of him. He is considered a ban in my life and i told myself if i dream of him the sign is bad. Probably that's because of my mood swing.

Enough of him.. I do hate him a little now and is trying to convince myself to forget about it since hating someone is bad for my health (physically and mentally). This morning i suddenly remembered that i had an appointment on sunday morning. Guess what? I am gonna have another meaningful weekend. 2 weeks ago i agreed to help out with J on the charity work and i totally forgot about it until just now! So i called her and asked her for confirmation. Gotta help her pack the things on sat afternoon as well. Really enjoy doing it.. This time its a bigger version of what we had done on Deepavali. I heard from J that they got sponsors to support the food. counting down to weekend again..

Depressed~

Feel like closing this blog. Feeling quite depressed recently for no particular reason. Just feel depress. It should not be PMS cause it just ended.. Buahahaha! Ya.. Since when had i changed to so pessimistic? Seems like my temper is quite bad recently. I know my temper had never been good but not this bad for so long. What is wrong with me? Probably i need CL to wake me up this time.. He always like to scold me when i am down and he never fail to make me cry when i feel depressed. Why? Because he never fail to speak the words i avoid, the things which i hate and in fact what i detest. Guess i really miss him alot.. oh.. come to think of it, we had been friends since 1994.. and thats like 14 years ago! OMG! He doesn't like me to remind him how long had we been friends because it makes him feels old. How great is it to have a friend who reads you like a book right? And that pair of X-ray eyes... Don't misunderstand me.. He is a very very good friend of mine..

Sick~

Ya.. I am sick again..... it was like 1 month ago when i recovered from flu and now here i am sneezing my way from home to work. Something is very wrong with the train this morning. Reached bugis at about 7.45am and saw that there were no train service from Tanah Merah to Pasir Ris! Lucky my last stop will be Tanah Merah. But the train is still very slow. It will stop at each stop for about 5 mins then it will proceed. So SO SO tired.. No coffee this morning and this can really kill me. Feeling so sleepy now cause of my flu....

Ok.. an add on to this morning post. Buahaha!! Think i should praise him abit and thank him for trusting me. Dear FINALLY let me drove his car on saturday but he said it have to be under his survelliance. I know its abit dumb but at least he let me drive it. Nothing much to say about his car cause i drove that model before and have no special comment to it. Honestly i was quite shocked that he was willing to let me drive him. It was in his friend's wedding dinner and he said that after he asked if i am drinking. Well, you can guess that my answer was "no" that's why he let me touch the steering.. BUahhahaa!! I still think he was joking until he passed me the key. Oh.. and he made me turned illegally at a junction. What an evil man... and people will think female drivers like to do horrible stunt.. haiz..

Indeed is just a phase

Like i had blogged few days ago, my rush of getting married is gone!!!!! Yah... i know its very very fast. People who know me well and close knows that i actually don't like the idea of marriage. Well, ever since R proposed to me in the middle of the night, and my decision to leave him to be with SL, i had a mind set that marriage is just a reason to bear certain responsibility. It might not sound logical, even my sisters think i am weird but that's my fear. Probably i was in certain relationship before, and my friend is still in it now. It made us some how wonder what is the reason of a "sacred" marriage. Is there still faith in it? So i suppose, it should be better to remain as now. YEAH! I should thank god for saving me from that silly thinking... BUahahahaha!!!

My new job

Ok.. think i had been blabbering too much about that uncle i did miss out a part of my life.. and that is my new job. Few actually know bout what i am doing now, so i think i better find some nice things to say about my job. As that few knows that i actually is lucky enough to take over this account who is a super troublesome customer (i have 3 accounts on hand now). Lucky right? The girl (my customer) who was previously working with me took over another part of the work and i heard that the "new" guy who took over is actually an ex-staff in that company. So of course, my life turned better.

When i first saw the name of this guy (ok lets call him TSL) i had a shocked! It bear such similarity to the TSL i know! Obviously i know that he was not the b* TSL who i know. Instead of 10 alphabets, this TSL only have 9. Because it bear such coincidence to the name, (except for the "L") i wondered is he "his" brother.

Ok, time to stop talking about that b* TSL, lets come back to my customer. He is so so so funny today! I was quite frustrated with them yesterday because they made me stayed in the office till late and decided to be harsh on them today! But today, TSL was quite funny, this afternoon after lunch, i replied him an email to request him to remove one of this person's name and he replied in another mail to remove his colleague's name from the email list as well. And also i forgot to add his name into the email which was sent out earlier on and have to resend to him again. Well, guess what he replied me? "and of cos add my name la, add now into yr mass email group, b4 u forget, haha" *fainted (i mean myself). Funny right? ok.. if it is not funny to you never mind, because i was quite stressed out today its a joke to find a reason to have faith in my work....

Grumble~

Yesh! Saturday is approaching! Well, just realise that people are looking forward to Sat because of Jay Chou concert but i am not. BUahahahaha!! So tired to wake up everyday! finally dun have to do it next week. I was day dreaming this morning and some flash back came into me. It may be the same for all aquarius. J told me that she behave the same way in private as well. My sisters and mum think that he doesn't treat me as good as i treat him. Instead i think i am quite mean in private and is always easily angry at some things he said. He won't usually coax me in public, especially when friends and family are around. Most of the time i will smile and be nice in public and scold him in private. Well that's most of the time if i am in good mood (which most of the time i am in good mood). Like what my sisters had said, because all these can only be seen by me, people won't know. Sometimes, it is really right when people says only those in the relationship will know what is happening. Think had been blogging alot about hi,. Seriously, i really miss him alot.

A little thought

Seems like there's alot of happiness around recently. Saw YY solemnization (oh! what a young couple), Michelle getting married in Apr, J maybe getting married this year, Lleroy is out and Ethyl gonna have a little brother soon. Think this is the first time after so many years that i have this rush of stabling down. Buahahaha!! I told er jie that i kind envy my friends who had plans to settle down and was thinking if i should discuss this with dear. We just started the relationship about half a year ago and i guess neither of us are still ready to settle down. This time i was telling myself, if only i can put reality aside, and fantasize on happily ever after, how nice can this be. Well, life is always cruel. Probably i heard too many good news and have this rush to settle down. Hope that this is just a phase. There are so many things i have not complete and I am still young. Considering a guy's age, i think dear is quite young as well and i think with his family history (his sisters), don't think he will settle down at his age. Probably i should ask him bout his plan coz seems like i am always the one planning (our holiday trips).

Really miss him so much!

Can we forward th time???? please!!

I am really going crazy! Cant stand not being able to see dear face to face. He is so far away and I seriously is gonna fall sick just thinking of him. Have so many things to tell him face to face. Wanna hug him and eat with him.. Wanna go for movie with him and simply stay around him... Can we forward the time and bring him back to me asap?

9 more days!

So tired...... so so so tired.... Was thinking of dear the whole of yesterday and today.. Can't get him off my mind..... so torturing to not able to hear him... Haiz... Can someone just forward the time?? i wanna be with him.........

Monday Blues

Its the start of the week and i am so so so unlucky. Today is the start of my 2 new accounts and my team suddenly have no access to the network drive! It means we have no reports to work on for our customer. What a monday to skive! buahahaha!!

Let me rewind the time to yesterday, er jie came home yesterday!! She will be staying over with her little piglet for a few days. Piglet is so cute, greedy and kaypo!! What happened?? Ok.. After er jie fed him yesterday, he was left on the bed to sleep. You can see that he was so sleepy and tired when he opened and closed his eyes in a reluctant manner. Naughty me just like to tease him, so i woke him up from his sleep and teased him. As he could hear someone talking to him, he started to kaypo and tried hard to open his eyes.. Buahahahha!!! Then i start to put my finger below his lower lip to make him feel like theres more milk coming he opened his mouth! buahahaa!!! The cute little piglet smiled everytime i disturbed him!! So cute~ He was smiling the whole day i think. He smiled at night too.. Ehtyl must be happy to see him today.. Cant wait to go home tonight.. BUahahhaha!!

TGIF!

Finally... the week is ending... and he is back today!!!! but flying tomorrow... boring right?am so so so so tired every day..... it is like sometimes i dun even know why.. After i met Adrian (SIC) that day and he commented that i looked very very tired and wasn't as lively as i used to be.. He still preferred the Gina in SEZ. Probably I really enjoy the evironment at SEZ. Almost everyone behaves like a big big family and were very close to each other. That is a reason why that was not a place to keep secret. Hahaha!! like we always so... there's no secret in that company..

Oh.. I miss my ex company so much..

believe it or not part II

It is usually very difficult to understand a woman, especially a single woman turning 30 this year. This is not a curse neither is it anything to pin point whoever. Adrian sent me a link today to check out who are the people who had blocked me in their MSN and i did that to confirm what i suspected. It fact her email address was there! In case you don't understand what i am trying to say. Let me turn back time to bout 1.5 year ago ok... That was when i first entered my previous company. My first friend there was definately the particular department which was suppose to be very popular among all employees (not for the previous company, that particular department wasn't the popular kinda people.). She was a very nice sweet lady but temperamental. I thought she was the most popular person in the company but it turns out otherwise after i get to know other people.

It was slightly after my second month in the company that she told me dear was asking her out for movies. Often, she will describe to me what they had done during the "date". It was soon after my third month in the company that dear asked me out for movie as well. Well, i guess he likes to go for movie with people. Probably that was because i teased him bout the movie "dates" he went with her. It was some particular incident that happened to the both of them and i got to know about it as she narrated to me her "dates". At that time, i did asked her if dear was to go after her would she have accepted him. Guess her answer? She nodded and at that point of time, she was attached with a boyfriend who often had disappearence act. That is all for the history. So tell me.. are your thinking what i am thinking??

Believe it or not

Came across some interesting things these 2 days. I suspect an ex colleague (M) had blocked me and dear in MSN and removed us from her facebook friendlist. What makes me think so? Ok.. the story started yesterday. This close ex colleague (B) was talking to me on MSN and told me that he was chatting with M online. I was taken aback cause i had not seen her online for very very long. At first i thought its my network, then i saw some ex colleagues online and i asked them. The answers were the same, she is online! Of course the last one i will definately ask dear and he told me that he don't see her online! hmm.... If you think i am thinking too much what about this..

As usual, i finished my work early, i went to facebook and peep around. Something was telling me to click on M and my itchy hands reacted to my brain's signal. To my surprise, she is no longer on my list of friends! I checked all our common network (my ex coulleagues) and everyone, except dear and me still have her in the list! Why is she blocking us out? I am not quite sure about it as well but i am suspecting something. It is something which i believe i am correct.

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Happy new year!! ok.. this is the first day of the year but i am so so so bored. how i wish friday will arrive faster. ya.. i went for fish leong concert that day with da jie. not bad, i had been listening to her for quite sometime and enjoy her song. dun mistook me as her fan.. i am not a fan of fish leong, just that i like her song and i do think she is quite good. shall upload the photo when i am free.