Chain of events

There are really so much unhappy things that had happened last weekend. Its a chain of events that i made out how i had felt. I made a last minute decision on asking my long-time-no-se friends out and it was to my surprise that i managed to get my darling but not my dear (QY) because i was too late in asking her. Well, probably i was too late in asking everybody as i had said, its a very last minute action and its success depands on those who appreciate. Since i had been lazing around the whole weekend, its time for me to blog the chain now.... Buahahhaa!!!

Friday

Ok... Like i had mentioned earlier, I had organized a super last minute gathering and had dinner with Rebecca, QS, YX and SA. As honest as she can be... SA actually said that she forgot the dinner until i smsed her... Boo hoo hoo!! BUT this sweet emo girl actually came after her colleague's farewell dinner to meet us!! That's so sweet of her right?? Buahaha!! And our cute and pretty faces actually made her emo.

We really enjoyed this dinner very much except for the stupid woman who forgot my order, the restof that evening was fantastic and enjoyable! I really don't bear to leave them so i took a train home instead of the direct bus i was able to get at habour front. Can you imagine, we actually entered the restaurant about 1930hr and we leave at 2300hr when the restaurant was closing (and they were hinting us to leave). We do have lots to bitch! Buahahahaha!! really heart this dinner so much and gotta arrange one with a FULL TWO WEEKS notice.

When i reached home, BH sotongly messaged me at MSN aboth the gathering.. Fainted.. She thought that it wasn't on since there were no more smses after she told me she had her celgroup. Ok.. never mind, think she is getting more sotong and she had been studying hard as her job required. BH work hard! Our future investments may depends on you if you are able to fare in you current job!! As for my dear ladies who had attended the dinner, i did express some unhappiness i had for some things i had read up on and felt that we are somehow not-so-important or rather not a priority to people-we-know-of. Any way, i have no means to probe it further since it was a past event and that we did enjoy ourselves.

Saturday

The original plan for that day should be my Birthday dinner and pressie day but it turns out so UNEXPECTEDLY that dear had to fly to Penang on Friday. So my Saturday was rather boring until i went for dinner with my family at IMM then back home to bathe and rushed out for a drink with J&J.

Sunday

Another boring day for me as i stayed at home to watch Wars of the in-laws II. So nothing much happen this day except crying. Really cried alot yesterday, some times i agree that mensus will make people more vulnerable emotionally than usual. I had not cried so hard for soooooo long until yesterday. Ok, the tears were mainly triggerred by the quarrel i had with dear in the morning (o200hr) over MSN's vcall. We always quarrel over the same thing and taht will be his away during all the important dates. I was so angry with the conversation that i hang up before even saying a proper good bye and before dear even finishd up his sentence. I was struggling to get the reasonable angel in me back and persuade me that i can always celebrate it in another day (just like everyone had mentioned). It was really very hard for me to trust in this relationship because he was always away during this kinda dates. I was finally back to myself after few hours of calming-myself-down and missed dear so much. But my tears did not hold back for long. I cried before i slept yesterday night after i heard his voice. He told me not to wait for him as he had worked late and was still having dinner outside at 2334hr. So i sent the request to listen to his voice and he called. I really could not hold my tears back any longer and my voice broke. I told him i was sorry about last night and as understanding as always, he said he understand how i felt. I couldn't get to sleep after i spoke to him. I really missed him so much.

Another horrible thing that happened yesterday night wasn't the rain but was the shoutings and cries from myneighbour upstairs. I never interracted with my neighbours and have no idea who the heck was staying upstairs. It was this sudden thud last night in my room that scare the hell outta me! My room was vibrating as if the ceiling was about to drop. No exaggeration here... Its fact! This wasn't the first time my neighbour ever did this kinda horrible act to scare the shit outta me but last night was the serious one. So since it was about to rain, i went to the living room. Usually i would not react to anything upstairs as the toddler was always crying. So the moment i went out to the living another thing totally freaked me out and i had to call mummy to return home as soon as she was done with her shopping at NTUC. There was this woman upstairs shouting so loud in some kinda i-dun-understand language mixed with chinese and english abit. I had a clearer version of the things i heard at the kitchen while bringing the laudry into my house. It goes like this:

Woman shouting: #*&#^$ (i-dun-understand language)!! CCB (really is in the english sounded broken chinese-hokien style)!! bla bla bla (cant hear clearly because of the thunder but i still can't figure out the language) maid!

And all these were accompanied by the horrible cries of the tod looking for mummy and the throwing of things on the floor. Well, how do i know things were thrown? Answer is simple... My ceiling was dropping!! All these really freaked me out as i was afraid that something will happen to the tod, so i decided to call my sister (her home, her hp and her hubby hp) but nobody picked up. So i called mummy.

Me: Mummy, you know the neighbour upstairs hor, is it chinese or malay?
Mummy: Chinese lor, why?
Me: Do they have a maid?
Mummy: Ya...
Me: I think the maid is abusing the tod, so scary, you faster come home leh....
Mummy: The tod always cry one ma.. not surprising. So late le the couple not home meh?
Me: I don't know leh.. very noisy. The maid was shouting like hell and our ceiling is dropping. I very scared, you faster come home.

And the noise ceased after a while. When mummy was back she heard the commotion as well but she wasn't sure whether that's the maid or the mother because the woman was speaking english. Think i shall end here as some unexpected thing had happened just now and my mood is at the bottom of the well. or even lower maybe i should say hell... Mood had not been stable recently so i shall not speak out as straight forward as i always do... so remaining silent...

It's still how much we wanna be happy...

Ok.. This is a boring entry. I am very very happy now! Well this kinda self-made happiness is short lived but at least i am trying to be optimistic can. Like i had once quoted to my colleague, satisfaction and happinesss is when i see the booking confirmation and invoice of my holiday trip! It really boost me up to see both dear and my air ticket booking confirmation and invoice for our OZ trip! Hardly there will be people who understand this kinda happiness because i had been looking forward to the trip. Now, instead of looking forward to weekend, i hope weekend will pass and good news of dear's confirmation on returning on wed arrive soon for me. I really miss him so much. Now the next satisfaction for me will the the hotels booking and the one way GC-SYD ticket booking from jetstar!!

Well, you can say that i am being an idiot by havin such self indulgence oinmy "unseen" happiness but i am really happy. At least i am understanding now and only pray hard for the worst NOT to happen. I just sent him an sms to tell him that i miss him so much even when i just saw him last night. You know, this kinda feeling comes in a package. It includes the distance from SG to PNG can. Can't wait till August...

cursed!!!

I think we were cursed!! whenever we planned for a celebration or anything it will be ruined by his short notice to travel. I was so happy yesterday that i had a free waxing session and would be meeting dear. But shortly after he picked me up at Novena, he told me that he was gonna tell me something and i would be unhappy. Deep down in me, i was already guessing what he was trying to say. And the truth came~ He needs to fly to Penang for support. Bloody hell!!!! We were suppose to celebrate my birthday this weekend and get my birthday pressie! I even scheduled a manicure session in order to look proper for that dinner! What was the reason that he had no choice but was chosen to go?

1. Peter have no visa. fine.. we can't control this....
2. Alex wife is coming. ok... knowing that Alex and his wifey knows each other shortly and had a lightning wedding decision 2 times after they met and i guess they are even more desperate to see each other than me and dear...
3. Eric's wifey is in hossie. WTH! Eric always have family problem....
4. Dear told his boss that he has something on on Sat. this made his reason the most invalid and useless.. ya.. who cares about your girlfriend when you don't even know whether you will be marrying her rite? And any way its just a girlfriend, not wife, so heck care much....

Once again, i am complaining because i was really sad. I almost cried in front of him can! I cried the whole night after i reached home and this morning while bathing can! A small tiff did occur yesterday night at his place. The tension started during dinner when i said i wasn't that hungry and have no appetite after what he had told me and he should tell me after dinner. We went back to his room to plan for the trip and book air ticket since SQ is gonna increase their price in Apr.

D: list down everything by date and calculate the cost. i wana see the cost then we decide the air ticket. (we were deciding between the milage accruable or milage not accruable tix)
M: ya.. we better book now because when you are back its already april and the tickets will be more expensive than now. its only 2 months and the tickets price increased since my last call.

I started pressing the calculator.

D: Don't understand what's the use of your long nails.
Sounding frustrated, M: I intended to do the manicure this Sat and was suppose to go for dinner with you but now its useless because you are going away.
Sounding very frustrated, D: you think i like to go is it?! Keep saying as if i like to go and ok.. maybe one day i will really volunteer to go. So you better stop saying!

I was so angry that i decided to heck care him for the moment and we both fell silent..

silence~



Silence~




SILENCE~

I wasn't the one who gave up this time round. Usually i would apologize for my unreasonable behaviour and ask for his forgiveness but not this time because i was too angry with him shouting at me. So realizing his mistake or rather the situation was quite tense as we were really silent in his room and all we could hear was the clicking sound from my nails while i press the calculator. He came over behind me and gave me a hug.

D: Still angry? Don't be angry la.. I also don't want to go but no choice. I try to make it back by wednesday ok...

And the sentence ended with a peck on my cheek. So the now-much-tamed me showed him the wonderful work on the calculations and we continued our discussion on the trip. We sweetly compared the price of the air tickets and discussed some itsy bitsy thingy on the time. The night was finalized by the first 20 mins of 27 dresses and an air ticket booking to Aussie!!!

I wasn't that angry now and was trying to hypnotize myself from being understanding. He flew off this morning and our dinner and brithday pressie will be postponed to next week. As for the Singapore Flyer, if we have enough time, i will probably go for that on Thurs after dinner. If not, i guess, we will have to do it some other day ba... Work is after all more important than birthday right?!

I tried to consoul myself by telling him that it's not a bad idea for him to go after all. Buahahaha!! Why?? Because he will have to feed me at Aussie!! My trip wasn't sponsored by him but my food there will be!! That's what he had volunteered and guessed he realised that that's a job for a boyfriend. So he shoudl work harder and earn more money now in order to feed me with better food!!! Buaahhahaha!! I am still optimistic after all...

What's behind the skin??

The complaining front of this uncontented girlfiend is a freak who always think her boyfriend is not good to her. And what's actually under this complaining front?? She is a girlfriend who loves her boyfriend alot. She is not uncontented, she just wanted him to not feel that she love him so much and is afraid that he will take her for granted.

The irritating front of this heck care boyfriend is an idiot who like to irritate his girlfriend with mean words and don't usually give a damn to whatever she had mentioned. And what's actually under this ignoring front?? He is a boyfriend who listened to what the girlfriend had mentioned and keep it within him until the appropriate time to show it. He is not ignorant of what is happening around him, he just observed them quietly and show his love whenever neccessary.

Why do i suddenly post this? This was what happens yesterday:

M: Lets go for dinner on my birthday then we get the pressie on Sat lor. Otherwise I duno what to do during my birthday and it will be boring.
D: I thought you wanna take the cable car ride? Not cable car, the the.. (dear was gesturing something but i was concentrating on my soup) horrible ride. Forgot what it's called.
Me, thinking that he was referring to the thrilling rides: There's no nice ride in Singapore.
D: Oh! You don't want? I thought you wanted that horrible ride?
Me, realizing what he was trying to say: Oh! you meant the ferries wheel??!! I want!!
D: You said you don't want just now. So no more lor.
M: I want!!! Thank you dear!
D: I think Thursday is week day so should have shorter Q. But too bad you said you don't want to go. And you face turn black so fast. Angry already.

Well, i was quite irritated when he keep repeating things when i cleared up saying i had the wrong idea of what he was trying to say. But one thing about this kinda irritating feeling is that it will subside very fast because i knew that he irritate me to look at my irritated face. But it was some sweet thing that he had said that made me really felt I am somebody in him FOR THE FIRST TIME!

We were having the same (continuous) conversation in the restaurant (forgot what was that) and was a little heated arguement on going to zoo, night safari and underwater world.

M: You don't wanna go any where and only stay at home to facebook! Singapore is so boring, can't we just think of some place interesting and walk around?
D: my boyfriend asked me to go Malaysia with him but i never go ok... Because i told him you are more important to me.

Ok.. at this point of time i stopped all the arguement and smiled. FOR THE FIRST TIME he had ever said such sweet thing to me. Or should i say, for the first time he ever mentioned that i am important to him. I always tells him that it is important to let me know that he loves me and sometimes i don't feel so important to him. He ever said because he don't say it out but he thinks that his action shows. He do understand that females are creatures that listen and males are creatures of sight but he seldom say things and remained silent most of the time during serious, heated arguement.

After our dinner, as usual, my dear and I went for a walk to digest the heavy meal we just finished. I dragged him around to get some office wear as i ran out of nice office wear and he was sucha darling to help me in chosing my clothes. Previously, before he arrived, i was already trying out at this corner of BHG. So after our heavy dinner, i went back to BHG to try out this new brand there. I was asking him regarding the tops i had chosen and i showed him 2 tops. The first top he said it was too "kiddy" and the second top he think was very appropriate and nice. So since i had tried the foirst top before dinner, i went ahead to try the second top. He think black is a very safe color so i went ahead to try black. After i came out from the fitting room, dear suggested me to try the beige one to see if the color suits me. And it turns out quite nice for me so having seen my wardrobe millions of times, he suggest i get the beige color since i don't have any beige top. In the end, i went ahead to get the first top in my favourite green (had not been buying green tops since 2 jie think my wardrobe looks like a grassland 2 years ago) and the second one in beige. Now i am wearing my beige top!!!! I love it when he participate in my wardrobe!

I hate wednesday

Seriously wonder how many people is as religious to blog readingas me. Buahahhaa!! Not easy to define yeah... Probably this is due to my slackness in work and i have so much free time to read up my friends blogs. I just spoke to J over the phone this morning and she asked if I wanted to go Mauritius club med instead on August. This is because she gotta know someone quite big in club med and was invited over and said "accomodation need not worry". Oh.. how exciting isn't it?! Guess what? In the end, dear said that i was crazy.

Yesh! Today is wednesday and i am so slack and i hate wednesday!!! I told dear yesterday night that Shell is employing Material Analyst. He asked me to try it. Honestly speaking, I really feels like trying it but they need someone with TWO YEARS planning experience!! How the heck can i try it??!! He said "Its Shell! The company that earns MY money!" Buahaahhaha!! But i guess, i really just have to be good and stay on for another 2 years. Gosh.. What a waste of a good chance and any way, that kinda good company won't hire someone inexperience like me.

Dear finally did something useful yesterday, he found a cheap car rental at Aussie!! Though that's through his friend's introduction, it's still quite worth!! He always said that he is going to bring a "da xiao jie" out for the trip and will only stay in 4 stars hotel. WTH.... Ok.. He is right, but the tortise me who seldom travel definately have to find a nice hotel to stay over right?! ^#@^ And guess what after that? I asked him to book the car and he said "Why you never go and see the website? I gave it to you so that you can go and settle it." WTH...

It seems like i had been in office for so long any it's just only 9 a.m. can someone just save me?????

Yesh.. its another boring day in office. Reach early, finish work early and feels like sleeping. Sometimes i think my work is a sleeping pill. It really makes me feels so tired and sleepy but once after work, i am like a dragon! Buahahahaah!! It doesn't make any difference when i am in school. Shell is employing material analyst and it looks very very VERY attractive to me! Haiz.. but i don't have that kinda experience, so i think i am not in luck for this.

Allow me to complain in here for a bit.. Actually sometimes, i am not being angry or jealous. Probably i am just trying to be difficult. Buahahahhahaa!! I really wana eat ma la huo guo!!!!!! Had been thinking about it for quite some time. I will grow fat just eating that and dear's mouth will stink with garlic! gross.... My mood swing is getting bad recently. I feel angry for nothing and is not being tolerant enough. Think one fine day, my mood will really get that bad that i will just shut his phone and keep it away to enjoy some privacy during weekend. Hmm... or maybe i should just ask my friend to call me during weekend. That sounds like a better idea because he will never understand how disturbed one will feel when the partner's phone keeps ringing. Another suggestion will be, he should join me for my dinner session with my darlings! And that shall be it! Ok.. now if he is gonna read this entry, he will think that i am angry or jealous again. I AM NOT ANGRY OR JEALOUS! I just feel irritated when there are times when we can spend quality time together but a bloody phone call or your bloody facebook gets into our way!!

I was teaching dear how to eat slowly and actually told him that it was very disturbing when he eat so fast. One thing that had slipped out from my mouth was, "I enjoy eating with Bryan more than you. Because he eat as slow as i am." This stupid old man (i mean dear) keep using the excuse that its his normal speed to eat and that was army trained. Now i used another man's example to inform him that men can eat as slow as females. The only time when he ate slower than me was when he ate the hot stone rice. And he can actually finish his bowl of hot ramen so fast! Probably he just doesn't how to appreciate food and eating so fast caused all the indigestion and it explains why he burped so much! Now he will remind himself to eat slowly to fit my eating speed and occassionally stop to wait for me. keep that up and one day my dear can stop irritating me on the dining table!!

I am just trying to write down all the irritating happenings and we are still fine and happily together. Just that he thinks that i am very petty and practically gets angry with everything.

Near 23

Well, well, the near 23 year old feeling is the same as the near 21, near 22 feeling the previous years. It only makes you feel older and more mature. Sometimes, you just feel like forgiving everything that was done wrong and forget about them. Well, the stubborness in a bull can never be reduced as my thoughts will always end with "i can forgive but will never forget." It had been proven times and again, so theres nothing we can do to change this part of my life. What done cannot be undone, so i just have to carry on with my life until one day i can smile to those who tied the knots. Shall stop naggying about it because its been 2 years and i am just being petty...

Back to some interesting conversation i had last weekend. Ok.. Let me start with the little naughty girl at home. Oh my gosh, her tongue is really getting sharper! This cheeky girl likes to argue with me and i enjoy arguing back as well. Love to look at her multi expression face! But when she needed help, she will seek for the help of any one around and that includes me. It goes like this:

E: Xiao yi (with her nice and unusual tone)... can you bring me home? I want to go home..
M: No, I don't want. You go and ask uncle ken.
E (walked over to Dear with a super sweet smile): Uncle ken.. you want to bring me home?

Well, Ethyl really is a sweet girl. That night when dear came over to my place after his bbq with his friends at Yew Tee, Ethyl came into my room and they played. That was one of the reason why Ethyl will dare to ask him to bring her home. She was very sweet that night. The moment she walked into my room to ask me to give her paper (for drawing purposes), she smile when she saw him as asked why was he here. Some times she really can treat dear very good and played with him. And so that night, he walked her back to her house.

Ok, heres another conversation after Ethyl went home.

D: ok.. Lets go and get your pressie next saturday.
M: OK!
D: When will your plan end?
M: November lor...
D: why not we wait till november la? otherwise i have to waste another 100 bucks.
M: ......

Finally i am settling down on my pressie!!! He had agreed to get me the thing i wanted! Shall not talk about it first, otherwise that will be another disappointment if i don't get it. Praying real hard now.......

Updates: I sms-ed dear this morning and called him just now after lunch. This kuku man was trying to be childish by saying he need another few minutes before he can talk to me. Whatz the reason? Because Liverpool lost last night as i had predicted! Buahaha!! Kuku man!

chirpy!!

Feels so chirpy today!! For no reason i am in a super high mood today, probably i am wearing my new dress and i look super good in it! Decided to put some colors on my face to cover my pale and tired look. No signs of tireness yet and is still hanging on!!!I love this this kinda feeling! It makes me feels like i am myself again. I usually have this kinda chirpy mood everyday and i love this kinda feeling because it refreshes me!

Updates on pressie

Ok.. I had a roller coaster ride regarding my birthday pressie can! Dear changed his mind because the sale at US had ended and the bag will be really expensive. Unless i am willing to trade my gift for other occassion to this gift. So i am not fated to have this bag, so sad....

So what will my pressie be from dear this year? I can't really recall what he bought last year, probably because we were not in a relationship yet. Buahahahaha!! I think he probably shared the pressie with the rest of the colleagues at that time and treated me to a dinner during the weekend. Will i be able to get a phone from him?! He agreed to shop with me tomorrow in order to search for my pressie. Praying real hard now.....

Birthday pressie!!!

I wasn't really looking forward to my birthday after 21 year old. It only makes me feels older and to face the fact that the clock is forever ticking. Kinda depressed actually.. I was walking home from the carpark yesterday when i heard my sms tone coming from my bag. Well, it took me some time to search for the small phone in my big bag and to my surprise, my dear sms-ed me! He was suppose to be in class, that's why i was quite surprised to receive his sms. The conversation goes like this:

D: Wat color bag you want?

Me: Pink..

D: Sure you want that design? My fren says its old

Me (a little sad bout the comment): Izzit? I like leh..

And the conversation continues after his class....

Me: You are really getting the bag??

D: Ya.. So expensive! Gotta bring you to hawker center for food liao. My friend also said that its so expensive.

Me giggling: But did you tell her its a combine gift (meaning combination of xmas and birthday)?

D: Yes, and she said its still expensive. $500+ leh.. Some more have to ship it back. So expensive. Look for 7 websites only and you are asking for such an expensive bag, i think you have to do more work. Hmm... so you will have to help me with the other 2 projects.

Me: Why need to ship it back? Whens your friend going US?

D: If you want hand carry have to wait till end of April and that will be too late. Who ask you to have such early birthday? Unless you tell me you are willing to wait till late April then that will be different.

Me: Ok lor.. what to do, think shipping cost quite expensive..

D: Woah! how can you say this? This kinda condition you also willing to agree??!!

Me: Then you want me to say "can'T! must get it by my birthday!" meh?!

D: That should be the right thing to say what....

At this point of time i really don't know how to react to him. You know, the kinda comical reaction, three lines appeared on my forehead and the crow flying pass above me?! It will be very unreasonable to scold him because he is getting me an expensive bag. Even if its a combination of Birthday and Xmas gift, that bag is still so expensive (i saw it in the boutique, it cost SGD$969). Well, that's probably a way to irritate me as well. My dear darling here never fail to irritate me and even if he did it in front of me, he would still enjoy it as he like to see my irritated look. Ok... enough of all the naggy stuff.. lets look at the wristlet and bag which my 2 darling sisers and my irritating dear bought!!

This is the COACH HERITAGE STRIPE WRISTLET which my 2 darling sisters had bought! they knew my favourite color is green and they got me green. Well, green is definately my favourite but his doesn't really look that nice in green. I would prefer pink or red but the girlie colors had been "chopped" by my sisters. Nevertheless, green is still me favourite color and i like it (even when i haven receive the actual pressie). Thanx Salmon moo-mmy and Alien moo-mmy!!

Yes, New COACH HERITAGE STRIPE MULTI-FUNCTION TOTE! This is exactly the same color and design which dear will be buying. I don't see this color in the Singapore boutique. I hope US will still have this.. *praying very very hard. Well, i have a very good explanation to get this bag, the material is not canvas, its wholey leather! So that expains the cost. Its suppose to be a baby tote, means, a tote for mommy use and it comes with a baby mat. I will be giving up the baby mat to both the moo-mmies in my family and Salmon moo-mmy said she claim it. Cumon moo-mmies (mommies) time to fight for the baby mat!! Buahahaha!!! Honestly, I think the baby mat is quite cool! An infant using a branded mat! OMG!!

SO TIRED!!!!

I AM SO TIRED CAN!! Blooody reached home at 12 and slept at bout 1215.. Slept for half an hour in dear's car.. Was really very very very tired.. And the coffee this morning was so sweet that i hard drank from the packet! Shall set my own curfew now.. Home before 10 on Sunday. Oh no.. Lunar birthday this coming Friday and my birthday will be the week after next! Can i don't grow old so fast? I need more sleep and it feels horrible when your birthday is approaching because it makes me feels as if my life span is diminishing and there are still so many things to complete.

I am still looking forward to the Aussie trip!! Dear asked his "love" yesterday about his "love" GPS and intended to borrow from him. The reason for that is very very very very VERY simple. Because i can't read map and it will take me half an hour to figure out the street directory. So it will be safe for both of us if i don't read the map. Buahahaha!! Oh.. how i miss my laughter.

ok.. i am so bored in office that i decided to blog again! I had been so bored that i actually googled on children's name.. Can you believe it?! Buahahahha!! Anyway, i found some new names and fell in love with those names. Think my future kids will probably have them. It had always been my dream give my kids middle name. Not that i am trying to act ang-mo but i am really not a least bit interested to include my kid's chinese-translated-english name as middle name in their documents. My english name was given by dad since young, therefore, i am quite used to having english names for easy reference. Also, since my siblings and myself share the word "bing" (ice in chinese) as a common character to recognize us from the same family, my future kids shall have a common middle name as well. Here's the name which i have in mind:

1) Averie (Avery): A unisex name for both boys and girls and this shall be my future kid's middle name since it fits bot gender. This is a beautiful name as it meant sage or wise.

2) Killien: Sound so cool and fierce right? Think is some English beer brand but i like it as it associate with the word 'kill" which sounded quite fierce to me. Indeed, it means fierce.

3) Desiree (my ever fav!): Loved this name since long ago... Think the meaning is quite obvious. Its a french name which means desire. Well, a kid should always be the one you desire aren't they?

4) Mikayla: The female version of micheal. I think it sounded nice and unique! its a very rare namecand in hebrew it menat something like god. Well, my girl will definately be a goddess!!

So.. If you put the names together, it will be something like "Killien Averie", "Desiree Avery" and "Mikayla Averie". So in short they will probably be called "KA", "DA", "MA" at home. At this point, i think i am too free that i think so much. But i love to name babies...!!!

Strange dream

How many people actually have dreams that seemed so real at night? I had quite alot of them since young. There were those that would make me wake up shouting and throwing my teddy bear. I had one "real" dream yesterday night or should i say this morning. So angry when i woke up.. I dreamt that dear had another woman and i found out about it. He thinks that's rubbish after i smsed him this morning to tell him about it. It really a very strange dream. I probably miss him too much... He is such a sweetie again!!! Told him about my cravings yesterday and just now he requested for a movie!! Even when Vivo doesn't have the tix, he suggested we satisfy my cravings and then proceed to movie. But one serious unfair thingy is.... We watched 10,000 B.C. of his choice last week, this week it should be MY choice of movie! But.. He wanted to watch Vantage Point. So.. being a nice, sweet, cute darling me.. I shal let him watch his choice of movie...

Da jie made cheesecake!! I had warned my (big eater) cousin against finishing my portion so i can enjoy it tomorrow!!!

KARAOKE tonight!!!!!! buahahaha!! time to sing song and talk alot of rubbish!!!! So bored... stupid customer.. wants a call at 5pm today.. making my day difficult..

Pressie conflict

Well, it's quite hard to hide my emotions actually. Its very disappoibting when da jie told me that the order had cut off and i couldn't get the order together with them in time after trying so hard to persuade dear to buy me the bag. First, let me start from the bag. I love BIG bags and this time, the bag which i had chosen is a BIG BIG multi-purpose bag. Dear agreed to get it for me by combining my birthday pressie and Xmas pressie. Of course, that includes the recent events on helping him with some information collection.

We were on our way home yesterday and he told me to help him to gather more information on some other things. Since i did not state my reward the other time, i told him that these 2 things which i had helped should be considered in the bag. It really pleased me when he told me that he is getting me the bag but he gotta ask when will his friend go to US. YEAH!!!! He initially think that by combining birthday and xmas was not enough - he wanted to include anniversary as well. @^#*!

I am really very very very happy that he agreed to get me the bag!!! Usually his answer to my "stupid request" will be a straight WLL (wait long long). But on Sunday when i asked him, he told me to surf the web and tell him which one i want. Hmm... The bags which i like are really quite pricey. Just like what my sis had said, why do i need such a big bag and i can just simply chose a smaller one which is less pricey. I did consider that but if i am gonna chose a bag which is cheaper, it means that i won't be very happy with the bag as well. So in this case, instead of buying a bag which is cheaper and i dun really like it that much, isn't it better if i get an expensive bag and i love it alot??

fixed!!

Ok.. what i am gonna blog about this morning might sound quite crazy. I had several feedback that i am crazy, even my mum thinks that I am mad to make such decision. Went to the dentist on Saturday morning. Dear was such a sweety again for accompanying me for breackfast then to AH for my appointment (he got a 20 bucks summon in return). He was walking around AH with me from E1 to E3 than back to E1 then E3 again. Waited 1+ hr for my Ortho because i was advised to see my Ortho by the surgeon without appointment.

This was what happened. I am going to extract my wisdom tooth on 9th Apr 9.45am.. Buahahhaa!! and guess what! I am gonna extract 8 teeth together! 4 wisdom and 4 other teeth for my braces. this crazy idea was suggested by my surgeon, this is what she said: "are you sure about your braces?" after i replied yes, she simply said it optimistically,"ok, if that is the case, do you wanna extract the teeth out for your braces as well? Any way, its free."

Hmm.. Since i am saving my money and all cost will be under my wisdom teeth extraction AND i will be under GA which i wont know anything at all. The answer that came into my mind was "WHY NOT!!". Buahahahhaha!!! So i went ahead with the crazy idea of extracting all the teeth at one go. Any way, my Ortho told me that he had not decided whether to extract the bottom teeth. The top 2 is a MUST and he gotta observe my x-ray before he decide on the bottom. Wonder how many days MC will that be. In case anyone here wanna extract your wisdom which CAN be FULLY CLAIMABLE using medisave (even under GA), the cost of everything is less than 1.2k (provided you go to the polyclinic to get your reference letter to get the subsidised rate, if not, it will be ex). I am hearing birds singing now.... (cheap, cheap, cheap)

10,000 B.C.

Caught this movie yesterday after work with dear. A movie which he think is cool and i wonder what makes him think so. Though i was quite interested in the movie (not as much as he was). Hmm.. Comments on this movie? Ya.. Funny at times but not that fantastic. The funniest thing which gave me such deep impression on its humour were these 2 scenes by Steven Straits when he spoke to the Sabre-tooth and one of the fierce tribe.

To the Sabre-tooth: I will release you but promise that you do not eat me. (Also, when he faced the Sabre-tooth again bout 5 mins after he release it) You must remember me!

To the fierce tribe leader: Tell him i am older than i look.

You gotta watch the movie to find it funny because every individual have different humour standards. Mine is the ticklish type which means i laugh at almost every little thing... Buahhaha!!

Happy!!

Feeling so chirpy now!! Just checked out the price for the filght to Aussie from SIA and was told that i can actually book my flight to Brisbane and return from Sydney!!! So happy!! So now it solve our "extra" cost of one plane ticket (only pay for flight from Brisbane to Sydney)!! Dear had been so supportive as well!! Happy happy!!

Major Construction

I was reading through some forums to prepare myself for the wisdom tooth extraction when i realized that i was preparing for lotza major constructions in my moth this year. Erm... probably juzt 2 of it.. buahahhahaa!! Going for a dental appointment on Sat for my first consultation on the wisdom tooth extraction. Actually was encouraged by my sis to go Alexandra Hospital to remove the wisdom tooth 2 years ago but was too lazy. Guess it is now time as this year i will be removing EIGHT teeth!!! Buahahahaha!! I must be mad...

Now i am worried bout my surgery 2 years later. After seeing Ethyl's pain while she's on the drip, I was quite scared as i will be on drip for THREE to FOUR days... Now I am really afraid of the pain.... haiz...

Tiring weekend

Ok.. A quick sum up on the eventful (last) week. Well, the biggest thing that happen last week was our quarrel and we made up the next day. So everything was resolved and we are still happily ever after. And other big thing that happen was Ethyl going to KKH last weekend. That poor little thing seem to suffer so much from her gastric flu. As she could not consume anything, she had to put on drip. Sucha poor little thing... When i saw her small little, dedicated hand with the needle piercing through it, my nose felt sour and pain in my heart. After her admission into the hossie, i really missed her arguments with me. I told sis that i miss her "xiao yi" and is waiting to hear from her again. Looks like the family sunshine is really down by the gastric flu virus... Ya.. and after visiting Ethyl at the hossie i went to NATAS fair with dear!! Ok.. we couldn't get much deals from there as i decided to cut all short trips in order to obtain my target savings by May. As understanding as he is always, he decided to go as i had planned. It was so crowded and not much things we can get since our trip will be during August. But one clever idea suggested by my clever sweety was to look at the itinerary and see if we can copy from it. Yes! Some of the package deals were what we intended to do and sure we can copy from it! Clever right??!!



Ok.. after the BIG quarrel last week, i receive something from dear. Judging from the date on the guaruntee card, the gift was bought from Austria!! And it is really not cheap, cause i saw it on the internet previously and know the approximate price for that. When asked why he only give it to me now, he said he forgot about this because he left it in the bag... !&*@! So what did my sweety buy??? Take a look at it......